electronderland

anna the arwana

2011-10-25T09:01:00.000-07:00

Our dearest (not so) little fishy. Her (or his? i'd never know) age is probably 2 years, and she eat a lot of cockroaches and centipedes. The way my father loves her is tend to be a bit creepy, since he apparently done almost anything for her. We used to have two and my father cried when one of them has died, he also made a grave completely with a cute-tiny cross.

my girls (part1)

2011-10-21T02:58:00.000-07:00

some of my dolls that i found at vintage shops, the big one is some kind of vintage Japanese porcelain and the right one is (suspiciously) Madame Alexander. No, it wasn't scary at all. Never mind this stupid oh-so-called old photo, they actually came in a very fascinating and lovely colors. In case you might want this ha-ha effect, just try this

2011-10-12T03:01:00.000-07:00

just trying my photobucket, and it worked! i've changed my blog layouts a little bit too, it feels like... all clear.

2011-09-20T06:24:00.000-07:00

and i used to think that being a designer is all about drawing good, technical stuffs, be creative, something unexpected, playful yet nasty ideas, etc. but one that i often forgot, we should put a 'soul' into it. something that would makes your piece feels so touchy, something that would make people smile and echoing "i do think about that too, it feels so right!" at the bottom of their heart. just that something, that... people would understand and catch a glimpse of feeling that you put through your piece. make it to express not to impress, and maybe people could feel that inner peace just the way you do.

rose tinted afternoon

2011-07-26T02:44:00.000-07:00

room inspirations

2011-07-17T12:23:00.000-07:00

just building the small, heavenly room of mine. if you really hate vomit pink, think twice to even look at it because that's kind of commit suicide.

1st time

2011-06-29T11:39:00.000-07:00

this is my first trial with the illustrator shit. i can't do vector nor the thousand confusing layer,just used some paintbrush and paint bucket, then finished it with some effect from filter gallery. i know it might sounds so pathetic, since i'm majoring visual communication design from now on. i don't even have any tablet.. damn, i missed my old macromedia flash, where i usually draw in free hands (no business with layers!) so it was much easier for me. it's time to practice more harder, i think my boyfriend could be my perfect private tutor :D i wont be shy or felling sorry with him, tee-hee. he could be there 24/7. thanks for always helping me F, i'm such a pain in your ass. you really saved my life for thousandth times (but i used to cooked you some lunch, i guess it's fair right? :D)

tea time clock

2011-06-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

This is a little project with my boyfriend, we want to make something from acrylic laser cut so we decided to create this wall hanging clock. We put on the clock machine and the tiny blue spoon and fork which made from art paper.

Maintain your times to sip a cup of warm tea, bite some deliciously strawberry creme cake and feed your flamingos at the secret garden!

brilli-cious

2011-05-02T04:23:00.001-07:00

This Belgian, Parisian-based designer is a total sickness, Natalia Brilli brings somehow a bold, strong, goth-rock design which could catch a glimpse of admiration. I suddenly fell in love with her black-leather pieces, but the embossed-leather thingy is kind of remind me with far majic stuffs. But,-yeah, we easily understand that it would be so hard to be-not-inspired with her remarkable and extravagant collection.

poupee

2011-04-16T02:20:00.001-07:00

viktor & rolf, tsumori chisato, jeffrey campbell

monthly

2011-04-14T03:43:00.001-07:00

special huge love for vintage hasbro/tyco/mattel toys circa 1970-1990's which i've been craving on since years ago but really don't know where to dig any of them

Wisuda 2: Venus Pearl of The Sea

2011-04-14T01:04:00.001-07:00

fotonya nyolong dari tumblr temen2 gue, ijin ripos ya gan! ^^v

Oke, setelah sekian lama gak update blog, gue memutuskan untuk memulai dengan yang satu ini. hrrrf rasanya lama banget ya uda gak nulis-nulis.
Jadi, inilah wisuda 2 yang dibuat oleh TPB FSRD 2010 dengan tema Venus, Pearl of The Sea. Ini ceritanya dewi venus yang lahir dari dalam kerang itu, hehee. kalo kata orang-orang, wisuda 2 itu emang puncak dari perjalanan tpb kita karena disini lah saatnya buat pol-polan. Sebenarnya gak terlalu ngutamain gimana feedback dari orang-orang ke wisuda kita ini (tapi gue tetap gembira dengan apresiasi dan antusiasme masyarakat kampus yang bagus sekali). Tapi yang pasti gue seneeeeeeng banget dengan segala proses dan perjalanan yang udah kita alamin. Mau orang bilang apapun, buat gue ini tetap wisuda yang super keren :') (arogansi angkatan, hahaha...)
Gawe gawean kita buat ngerjain wisuda ini lumayan banyak rintangannya. Dari izin penggunaan selasing yang cuma sampe jam 11, disensiin k3L dan orang mektan yang hobi banget jadi tukang ngadu (bahkan ampe dipotret-potret buat jadi bukti, IH!) mau digusur dan diancem barang-barang kita mau dirampas semua, diancem skorsing sanksi akademis dan sebagai-bagainya. pas hari H aja ijin buat naruh properti itu susah banget katanya.
Tapi hebatnya, kita semua bisa ngelewatin hal-hal kecil itu. Gue kangeeen every little things yang ada di masa masa gawe itu hehehe, mulai dari jualan-jualan makanannya danus yang sukses bikin gue termiskin, nasi goreng titipan di medik yang karena dimasak massal rasanya agak gak karu-karuan tapi karena sikon lagi lapar berat tetap aja enak dan gue jarang bayar, nyolong vitamin c rasa jeruk berapa biji dari kotak medik, gawe publikasi yang bikin ga tidur, sakitan, tugas keteteran tapi tetap senaang, latihan perform malem-malem di plawid dan ditontonin anak-anak teknik, ketiduran di selasing atau pln dengan berbagai pose ajaib dari tiap-tiap anak terus dibangunin tatib, baju berlumuran cat tembok dan semua celana jadi celana gawe, nginep di selasing dan bangun2 langsung ke kelas dengan wajah lusuh, celotehan anak-anak yang super bego-bego dan ajaib plus tingkah kelakuan cacat yang ga ada habisnya, teriakan-teriakan semangat plus beranjing-anjing dari danlap super dan ketua angkatan serta ketua wisuda yang kelewat baik, nonton video bikinan dokumentasi dan terharu bangetngeeet :'), ngebully yoga yang ketiduran ntah dicoret-coret mukanya atau dibikin jadi korban tsunami, masangin poster malem2 secara vandal dan saking kelewat vandalnya sampe diprotes suatu himpunan yang sekarang bikin aturan mading baru karena publikasi kita yang timpuk sana sini, jadi loper acinya koran buat di rang, bikin 8 TENTAKEL DALAM SEMALEM dan ngecat kerang jinny oh jinny, DAN LAIN SEBAGAINYA yang terlalu banyak buat disebutkan.
Ga ngerti lagi mesti ngomong apa, yang pasti gue sayang banget sama angkatan gue. TPB FSRD '10 emang kereeen banget deh :D emang kayak basi, tapi disini kita dapet pelajaran berharga banget yang ga ada di kelas dan jauh lebih bermanfaat daripada pulang kuliah terus hura-hura gajelas. Dan terimakasih banyak banget buat kakak tatib-tatib karena mereka berhasil memacu semangat dan kreativitas kita, tanpa mereka ga mungkin jadi sejauh ini :') dan sedihnya TPB bener-bener tinggal bentar lagi, which means, ga akan lagi sekelas sestudio rame-rame semua dalam 1 ruangan...

God most magnificent creature

2010-07-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

i love you harry treadaway. he just spanking my eager eyes and he rocked brothers of the head so damn outrageous with his twinbro, luke.

mood board

2010-07-29T09:03:00.000-07:00

there are so many wild things waits to be revealed, somehow hidden right behind my every single unit cells of my complicated brain. err, do i make it sounds ridiculous? okay, despite the fact that i can't realize those reverie into obviousness, i saved a lot things which inspires me the most and when i looked at it i scream, "gosh, that's what just like i dreaming and always wanting to before!!" funny, how could different human have same thoughts and lucky that the other one can make it into a 'reality'? i just being a snob did i? i TOTALLY will never had a same brain with those spectacularly-awesomish-heaven's stuff creater out there..so let's just understand how pathetic i am.

i always love printed stuffs on shinny silky satin fabric. and a hue of dyed pastel color blasting into a nude background. it looks so versatile, yet sassy but classy like it patched so softly at your skin. carla spetic is a total mind blowers and please address me some tickets to aussie where she stayed and grow. and the pink one comes from Japanese webstore which i forgot the name and snapped it at sussie bubble's. so i think i just have to choose textiles craft major at my faculty and let's bomb it out.

those vintaggy sweetie neckpiece both from some etsy stores (sorry i forgot and i can't put the credits here) and tatty devine. she is like my forever love i've been obsessed to at my first time i snapped her birdie necklace. she's a acrylic queen goddess demi-god whatever. and the cute rossie suitcase came from some vintage webstore and it really bring a sweet warmth feeling as i imagined i would stroll the city around with this baby, vintage wooden glasses and bib collar shirt.

shoes are heaven. miu-miu is one of the goddess who rules there. i think i'm run out of words for this one because yeah you already know it was incredibly umayzink. but about the peachy winged wedges.. i always desired it and i saw it at mellissa on 7o7 but it comes in a grey one.

but painted wedges like this is bizzarely smart-cute. think about buy the plain one and let the brush do the rest.

what do you think about katy perry's new album cover? many spit on it but i said i LOVE it. vintage, dreamy, cotton condy. what could be more perfect above those translucent skin.

butterfly effects

2010-07-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

hello blogssie. how are you? i hope you being nice while i left you 'for a while'.
and i do miss you, how i share you all the sunny side into dark lightning stories that fulfilled my life. how i told you everything and type so fast while i cried.
from the stories of 'him' to another 'him', you were there.
forgive this ignorant boss, eh? tee hee.
also forgive me dear blogssie, i often write my stories at tumblr now because it less visitors (LOL)
so.... hmm i will contain you with something soon.
when i experiencing something that really really electrify and outrageous

because you deserve the best to write on.

past, present and future

2009-11-18T07:46:00.000-08:00

after long disappeared, after long journey that I've been through,
now i have the guts to string up all my words and poured it into a single paragraph
which first i thought it should be started with some sentence like,
"Hello people, how are you? i hope you'll have a very nice, sweet and warm day in this cold rainy season"
i have some tendencies to skip all the ice breaker, and pretend that nothing happen for present.
shall we?
so before we kick up a row, lemme tell you in a long list, what exactly happened for several times since I've been gone. oh, that sounds INTERESTING. Before you go fall asleep, I'll change it into 'my activities in PPF'. got it?

PAST
a. i lost my old beloved phone. sucks. but i got a better replacement
b. i met my boyfriend. finally i got a chance to gave my rotten gifts
c. i skip tryout simak ui, caught by my teacher, but i kept runaway
d. i spent all my money for something i don't even know what they used for, but no regrets!
e. i cried because my papa didn't let me take some regular study course. wth

PRESENT
a. i took some draw course at bintang merah and still doing it until right nah
b. feel frustrating everyday because i realize i will never be good enough for anything
c. so does my drawings, sucks!
d. sleeping whenever it comes to unnecessary subjects
e. stomachache EVERY MORNING. swear, it's torturing my soul
f. playing the sims oftenly

FUTURE
a. learn harder and faster at every subject
b. boost any skills at an unbelievable times
c. accepted at FSRD ITB!
d. make my parents proud and debonair
e. have my own labels and boutique
f. live magnificently!

there's still so much more but i gotta go to sleep right now. Good night peeps..

foto, foto dan foto

2009-07-01T09:54:00.000-07:00

hey there humanoid, wah udah lama banget gue nggak nyentuh blog ini yee hehe. yah karena disibukkan oleh seabrek kegiatan sekolah dan sekarang gue dalam masa hibernasi dan istirahat total.. cape euy, abis pulang dari the-ang(baca:dieng) dan jogja, langsung lanjut ngurusin sevone cup yang sukses buat orang pulang larut malam terus ampe nginep2 heheh, but it awesomely fun dan event nya sukses ya syukur bangeet. anyway, this is gonna be a long long post karena gue nge post banyk foto, which i rarely did cos gue suka males hahaha (see, jarang kan post gue yg ada foto2 guenya). But i'm in my mood right now, so if you got a little time, spare a sec or two to see my holiday's crap, enjoy <3

ini mah abis sevone cup, hahah sesudah dieng nih (me with my round-swirl fan)

borobudur! hurray

touch with your hand and make a wish ;)

biar di jogja teteep yee, maennya karaoke

sumpah disini viewnya baguus banget kaya di bungkus permen alpenliebe (?)

my beloved xi ips 2

semoga kalo naik bis kuning pertanda calon UI (ngarep)

ini mau berangkaaat :) (flanel coklat)

i wanna go back to dieeeng, kentangnya lezat, es tong2 nya enak, purwaceng nya mantap, fedoranya cuman 15rb, orang dieng lucu2 mukanya pada merah2 (wtf?) udaranya dingin, also i wanna go back to jogja, belom kesampean nyebrang pohon beringin yg legendaris ituu..

thousand feets invasion

2009-06-11T22:55:00.000-07:00

maybe the title sounds cool and smells like sci-fi things
but trust me, there's nothing cool about it! definitely the worst thing ever happened at my house
yeah, jadi sodara-sodara,
inilah thousand feets a.k.a kaki seribu!
gue nggak bakal ngasih pic nya karena.. iyucks, geli jijik amit-amit nauzubilaminzalik
lo pasti udah tau sendiri kaan bentuknya kaya gimana. ato perlu gue jelasin? hoho. ya modelnya kaayk cacing gtu tapi dia bisa bergerak cepat dikarenakan memiliki 1000 kaki (pastilah kalo ikut lomba atletik dia sudah menang)
warnanya hitam kemerah-merahan.
kalo disentuh langsung melingker kaya obat nyamuk.
gile nya lagi, dia bisa manjat!! ngerayap di dinding gitu! emangnya permutasian silang antara cacing dan cicak?
terus ada apa dengan si kasibu ini? (kaki seribu kepanjangan, mari kita singkat jadi kasibu)
yeah, belakangan ini banyak sekali kasibu di lantai rumah saya... awalnya di garasi yaa, terus merembet ke dalam rumah. sumpah itu tiap hari ada kasibu di lantai, gue jadi ga berani tidur2an di lantai ruang tamu lagi.. kadang2 juga banyak ditemukan di dinding. lalu di kamar gua (sumpah ini jijik abis) terus hebatnya ampe ada di lantai 2! berapa windu dia hiking di anak tangga yg banyak itu coba?
tiap hari saya merasa diteror kasibu. ya emang ga banyak2 bgt sih jumlahnya, sehari adalah 1. tapi tetep ajaa, bikin deg-degan.. gimana kalo pas saya lagi tidur terus dia naek ke kasur terus salah rumah kayak caca dan cici? (mengacu pada iklan kombantrin). gimana kalo dia sampe @#$%&*!@##$! (sensor)
jangan salahkan rumah saya. mungkin kalian pikir rumah saya jorok banget kali ya ampe ada kasibu, tapi sumpah deh enggak sama sekalii! rumah ini selalu dibersihkan secara sempurna dan telaten sampai menjangkau sudut-sudut yang seringkali terlupakan. mungkin gara2 ada tanah kosong samping rumah kali ya? kan rumputnya banyak banget tuh, mungkin disitulah awal perkara dan prahara kasibu ini.
gue sering banget mimpi buruk gara2 kasibu nih.. sumpah sering bgt. bangun2 udah keringetan terus jadi geli sendiri ama tempat tidur. rasanya pengen gue bunuh semua, tapi kata temen gue kita gaboleh ngebunuh mahluk yang nggak gangguin kita. tapi kasibu mengganggu pemandangan gue, gimana dong? ujung2ya ya berakhir dengan gue timpuk pake sepatu, terus gue diemin sampe ada yg berani ngangkat.
mau sampe kapan diteror kaya gini?
gue udaah caa..peeek.... (lebay)
gue juga udah cape ngetiknya, penting abiss deh gue ngomongin kaki seribu ckck. yaudah ya, goodbye everyone, have a nice day without thousand feets <3

this is the part that i called 'bittersweet times and how it teach us'

2009-06-06T01:04:00.000-07:00

hey there biatches! okay udah lama banget gue nggak update blog ya, sampe bingung mau start darimana dulu, because there's a lot lot lot lotta things i wanna tell-and-write! Especially for all those bitting moments which keeps 'gentayangan' on my mind, yeah, couldn't rid 'em since those days ago. oh and fyi, i currently listening to weird al yankovic for his super-hillarious-song, the ebay song! omige, i can't stop myself to laughing and grinning. you all have to listen to this song or watch the lip-sync vids on youtube. i mean, this one is picturing ebay sooo perfectly! :)

okay. start from this one.

this is the part that i called 'i know i was a jerk but my dad wore a mask in his face which written words that spelled Y-O-U A-R-E A S-H-I-T'

let me straight the things, yes i'am the one who turned on the fire and he's a person who got mad so easily. the beginning are so simple, my lil sister bought a watch and i want that too, so i asked him but he didn't want to buy me just because i already had a watch (so what if i had many different watches dad?? it suites my clothes! and i started to collecting watch!) and he told me that he will buy me other things except that. suddenly i became so grumpy and angry with him (yeah so called ngambek) and when we had dinner at pasta waraku, my mom already took some steak for me while i craving for their carbonara! i mold my face so ugly and suddenly some tears are fell from my eyes even i dunno why. ok i know that i was so ANNOYING. but then my dad got his eyes on me and he shouts and yells so loud in front of my family (or everyone, if they watch it) like this, "SEKALI LAGI KAU NANGIS, PULANG KAU! SAYA TIDAK SUKA ANAK ----- (i forgot it cos i missheard that part but i think he going to say 'KURANG AJAR') i shocked. completely. his face are the most worst thing happen at the time. then i stop my self to cry. and you know what? the day after that, i ignored him and keep saying cruel things even he already try to be kind with me. now a week had passed, i got the watch from my own money (and he was angry when he know that, he said it was unusefull and wasting my money) and still feel a bit mad untill today. just fyi, i felt mad not because he didn't buy me, but it just because he was mad at me so...deeply. i angry with myself for act like a shithead.

and, this is the part that i called 'a drama in a drama does exist in our artshow'

yeah my class got an art project. lemme short the things, when i still got no part at the artshow, i asked if i can join saman to my classmate who think she was a central-of-the-universe-and-you-have-to-listen-to-all-her-words (yeah, she's a control freak). she didn't let me cos she thinks it already full (and this lately, she joining one of her bestfriend into saman after all this crap, wtf). and when i asked if i can join perkusi, she still didn't let me in, she said that it was a HARD thing and she thinks i have no ABILITY. yeah everything is possible if we try to learn it, but she wont give a chance! okay, so everyone already got a part and some of them got double or triple, so me and my friends made a choir group for those who stilll haven't got any of, and guess whaat, those crap who already got double or triple still want to JOIN it. yeah there's no wrong about that, but still i think it's a bit 'maruk'. retards! o-ky i let 'em in, so when we're practicing, there's one girl who annoyed US so much and keep on grumping, yeah she just a stressor. the whole thing turns so bad cos each division had problems which unsolved. on the D-day, show was cancelled due the acces to use the room was unable and my teacher was so upset, so do us. our 'ketua acara' was freaking mad cos he want to run the show today, he's already getting tired. we almost fight with him, although we were his friend, but that time he was just so annoyed. yeah, so the artshow felt like a broken glass. everyone seems like a cocksucka, shit.

still, this is the part that i called 'forced to being money oriented just made me like a coward nigga'

sevone cup directly told us that we have to raising fund for our project, each person have to raise IDR 400.000 in a week. so my head completely spinning around and round, yet we still bussy for the art show, we have to do this. oh God, i have no idea what i should do. all the crew already did the 'door to door' method, ngamen, jualan dst and what the rest? so me and my bestfriend who were not the crew but likes to help for free, went for a fund raise trip. we already got 220.000 which have to be shared with my friend (who was a crew too) and since we're doin this trogether, we have to raise 800.000. well, we have to spinning our head more and more, any idea to raise some fund? i planned to sell things but i just dunno what i have to sell, and time keeps running out. money is soo hard to find, now i got it. yeah i'm trapped, and you know what, my BF back to Jakarta but he got into hospital and i still got no chances to visit him!! i feel pitty for him and wish i could be there, beside him to keep and whisper. all i can do is just pray for his health. he didn't reply my messages and didn't answer my call, maybe he just into intensive rest. oh baby get well soon pls and i promise i would be there soon..

sorry if this post too long and sorry for my lack english, cheerio

D.I.Y ipod skin

2009-05-06T23:48:00.000-07:00

After looking at years that we've been through together, so as my loving sign (teehee) i've made a DIY skin for my ipod. It doesn't mean i don't like garskin or what, but i think a hand crafty stuff shows more love because it contains your hard work and all your pain. Okay skip this bla bla blah. Designed by me and printed on upsilon poly-silk adhesive paper

frontside

backside

it's a poly silk so it feels like a fabric. really soft and smooth.

and these pics below are my original design, coloured and BW.

geez we can assumed that my printer is a very bad one. poor color printing, the result is more darker and brightless. see, the original design had much difference with the result.

sebelum jagad raya itu tercipta, Tuhan darimana asalnya ya?

2009-05-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

itu adalah pertanyaan gue semasa kecil yang tidak ada jawabnya (dan mungkin tidak akan ada)
kalo gue pikir-pikir lagi, itu adalah suatu hal yang sangat rumit.. segitu rumitnya sampe bener-bener nggak kebayang, ga ada gambaran sama sekali.
Tuhan itu dulu asalnya darimana ya? apa bedanya Tuhan sama Allah, katanya Tuhan itu anaknya Allah yang tunggal, berarti Tuhan punya papa dong? (yang nasrani ngerti kaan) Emang Allah itu bentuknya kaya gimana? Sebelum nyiptain bumi Tuhan ngapain aja sih?
dan nggak ada orang dewasa yang bisa menjelaskan secara pasti.
pas gue katek, kita ngebahas soal itu. pendeta yang ngajar gue adalah orang yang amat sangat menyenangkan, he's my muse. dan dia ngasitau gue hal ini.
kita sebagai manusia, adalah ciptaan Tuhan. kita juga bukan mahluk super sempurna, karena itu akal kita itu gak bisa buat memikirkan hal-hal yang Tuhan pikirkan. bahasa kasarnya ya otak kita gak nyampe lah. 'bahasa' tuhan dan 'bahasa' kita tuh beda. sebagai contoh aja nih, semut dan manusia tuh berbeda. semut ga akan ngerti bahasa kita, kalo misalnya dia liat mobil, dia ga akan nyebut itu dengan sebutan 'mobil', mungkin aja dia sebut..otop gitu, ato apalah bahasa semut. dia ga akan ngerti kalo mobil tuh terbuat dari besi ato apalah. sama kayak kita ke Tuhan. terus juga tentang Allah, well kita nggak tau apa itu wujudnya. kenapa Tuhan itu digambarkan sebagai anak Allah? karena hubungan Tuhan dengan Allah itu sangat dekat, sehingga digambarin sama istilah Bapa dan anak, sehingga kita bisa ngerti seperti apa kedekatannya itu. bukan Bapak beneran.
Balik ke pertanyaan awal di atas itu, yah... emang nggak ada jawabnya. Dan kita nggak akan tahu.
Dan memang gak perlu tau juga.
Curiousity can't kill kok hahaha, biarkan ini menjadi misteri. All i know is God loves me, rite?

sweet, lovely random stuff

2009-04-17T23:47:00.000-07:00

You know exactly how much bored i am now, so i'd like to post some stuffs which captured my souls, and i will marry anyone who would like to give these all for me (boy, of course)

okay this pic above has nothing to do with stuffs below, just my design for portraits and i think it could be my next logo :)
and i want this swarovski deco for my phone, want it so bad seriously

and harajuku lover's fragrance will make my day, snifffs..

And i adore Kim Songhe so teribbly much.. Look at her 400% bearbrick, it filled by those cute charmy stuff, and that mickey candelier? auhh, can't resist

And a set of Tarina Tarantino will makes a super huge big grinn on my face.. Those lovely lolita jewelry would looks so much good on me, doesn't it :) Just kid fells, but i'd kills anything to get her barbie collection

love jeremy scott so fucking much(s)!

2009-04-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

I think he's my favorite designer for now.. His collection is so tempting and i would give anything for his stuffs.. His style is so pop and full color, eccentric yet playfull and attractive. Just check these out cos picture worth a thousand words!

Yummy! I knew each person has their different style and likeness, so i think this one is mine. i wondering if i can get something which had much similiarity with those collection :p But more in wearable way, i think. Those all too edgy to hit the street.

Q-pot jewelry

2009-04-17T00:57:00.000-07:00

This will tick your sense of adorable.. Q-pot is accesories brand from Japan which is so cute but classy and precious at the same time. Just check these out:

And their disney stuffs? superb and adorable, of course. Mouth watering!

Check out their website, www.q-pot.jp

yeah it's so fast and also fuckin furious, dad

2009-04-03T23:58:00.000-07:00

current song : we are rockstars-does it offend you, yeah!

hola everyone! gila, badan gue sakit banget nih gara-gara dufan hahah. tapi puass banget!
Kemaren, gue menjemput si daddy gue tercinta (ha!) di bandara. Lagaknya bisnismen yang sangat sibuk, dia hanya mampir ke jakarta untuk kurun waktu kurang dari 10 jam (hell yeah) lalu segera melanjutkan perjalanan terbang ke medan untuk melayat sodara yang meninggal.
Jadinya, malem ini kita jalan-jalan. Pas nyampe ke GI, we decided to watch, umm, fast and furious (tapi pas nontonnya, gue ngantuk banget karena capek dan stengah2 ketiduran huhuu padahal filmnya baguus). Pas abis beli tiket, akhirnya gue dan kakak nemenin bokap belanja. Huu dasar bapak-bapak, ternyata bisa lebih ribet dari ibu-ibu. Kalo mau nge-fit baju tuh bawel banget nanya2 hahaha. Lalu sehabis ngider2 harvey nichols, nemu juga dia long shirt sesuai mau dia. Terus kita cao ke takigawa dan selama nunggu pesenannya, we had a simple touchy conversation :)

kakak: " iya pa, ntar kalo pensiun mau ngapain pa?"
papa : " apa ya, papa juga gatau"
kakak: "ya kan biar papa bisa seneng di masa tua"
papa : "ah kalo papa sih yang terpenting itu... kamu semua tuh sehat-sehat.. bisa sekolah yang bener... cuma itu."

.......................
papa : "...iya ci, terus nanti kamu kalo kuliah amu ambil jurusan apa?"
me : "hm apa yaa.. gatau deh pa. mama sih maunya aku ekonomi"
papa : "aah gausah denger mama mu itu. pilih aja yang kamu mau. kan kamu bakatnya beda-beda. katanya kamu mau desain itu? cari aja yang paling kamu senengi, desain apa gitu"
me : "iyaaa paa :) "

(tapi gue pesimis banget kalo mau masuk desain. sumpah, pesimis. wake up ci. di luar sana tuh ada banyaaak banget berjuta-juta manusia dengan bakat yang super amat sangat jaauuh lebih baiik daripada gue! mau jadi apa nanti gue? gabisa jadi apa2! ga ada yang outstanding!)

Tapi, thanks banget buat semua supportnya pah. And you're just leaving early in the morning and i haven't say goodbye dad, take care and be home early, rite. God bless ya'

many thanks to you

2009-03-29T07:58:00.000-07:00

and when you have nothing to do
when you regret it
when you thought 'at least i'm trying'
but there's not even a chance
and you just messed up with no one care
after you watching drama series
and you think it wasn't came real
and no other peeps will act like em'
when you dream about the past
sit back when you laugh so hard till mad
and you lying right in front of his eye
but make sure it comes from your heart
when you want to cry
without no clear reason, you don't even know why
you want someone to hear you, but the fact there's none
when you typing something but it makes em' missunderstood
leave you alone with keep that ugly mind
when you try to call but your mouth got freezed
and you just sit, stare from far waiting for some miracle
when you think you're just fit
but they talks about you behind your back
when you're think there's no one will be there
but yes he is, staring with my favourite smile
kinda forgotten, but always standing there
hold my hand and said i was his wallpaper
he saw little siamesse twin who look a like with me

and when the world against me now
i just need to recognizing that smile
that will be enough. for now.
thanks for make me stronger.

what a bittersweet day, with YOU!

2009-03-27T10:18:00.000-07:00

current song: shiny toy guns-you are the one

yes, you are the one! dan hari yang asam manis pahit ini sangat lah menyenangkan untuk bisa dilalui bersama lo gha :)
akhirnya setelah penantian sekian lama.. sang pacar kembali juga, tapi yaa buat sementara. lalu akhirnya tadi sehabis rapotan gue langsung melarikan diri dengan dalih 'mau tek met mading' (aah piiiikkkk) dan kabur dengan si argah yang meminjam motor temannya gogon untuk dibawa lari (fyi aja, motor arga di bandung haha) dan akhirnya, kita ga ada tujuan! gatau mau kemana karena gue gabisa lama-lama, soalnya ada acara ultah. yaudah deh, si arga mampir dulu ke rumahnya buat ganti baju, terus gue dititipin di alfamaret (fyi lagi, gue belom siap ketemu nyokapnya arga, jangan tanyakan mengapa!) pas lagi di alfa, sumpah ya itu isinya mas2 penjaga alfa semua dan lagi banyak banget. gue agak heran, kenapa ga ada yang belanja? kenapa mas2 yang jaga banyak banget? kenapa gue diawasin terus?(emang ada tampang maling yee) dan ternyata, baru aja ada pengutilan disitu.. yang ngutil emak-emak gitu deh. dia langsung digotong polisi terus agak dibentak kasar gitu sambil disukurin para penjaga alfa, hahaha. terus arga jemput gue deeh, eh ban nya kempes. lalu akhirnya kita ngedate di tukang tambel ban dengan peluh dan keringat segalon akua (sumpah ya tadi siang panasnya udah kayak neraka bocor) sambil makan nyam-nyam berdua. gila date impian banget dah. lalu kita udah bener2 ngebet pengen ngadem, terus akhirnya ke mcd deh. disana ya kita casciscus udah laganya yang punya mcd aja, terus arga ngasi kabar yg sedikit gaenak dan gue langsung sensi serta menumpahkan kemarahan ke arga(bukan salah dia padahal, gara2 temennya yang 'hebat banget' itu) maaf ya ay, terus gue pulang deh.
akhirnya gue bersiap-siap buat ke ultahnya sia di castle. terusan sampe gue disana, baru gue doang yang dateng gitu, ah garingkrik banget deh. terus akhirnya ya mulai pada dateng dan yaaa casciscus lalalalili sambil makan foto-foto bla bla (gajelas ya , maap) terus gue menyuruh si arga dateng. eh terus ya nongol deh dia, yauda kita pacaran deh. pas banget waktunya anak2 udah pada mau pulang, akhirnya tinggal gue berdua sama dia di dalem dan lama2 castle jadi sepii banget. terus kita maen truth or truth (ga ada dare nya,hahaha) dan gue seneng sekaligus sedih, karena kita ngomong bener-bener heart to heart banget. itu tadi bener-bener quality time banget, karena jaraaaang banget kita bisa kaya gini. kemungkinannya ya 1:100 lah. dan setelah disindir-sindir mas castle yang agak sensi dan nungguin kita karena kaya udah mau tutup gitu, akirnya kita pulang. terus besok gabisa ketemu, lagi. untuk jangka waktu yang panjang. gue gatau deh nih udah campur aduk aja perasaan gue pas pulang ke rumah, mendadak gue jadi kayak bukan gue yang biasanya gitu (APA BANGET DAH) and i listen to mellow songs yang notabene bukan gaya gua dah haha. mungkin selama ini gue pretend to be strong dan tegar aja, padahal dalemnya mellow abibes dan gue pengen nangis ngis untuk alasan yang tidak cukup jelas. tapi emang kalo sama si arga yaa ga akan ada hal yang cukup jelas atau cukup untuk dijelaskan lah hahaha karena segalanya berjalan sangat strange dan ga ketebak (secara orangnya juga gajelas gitu hahah)
but, actually i felt so lalala today. it just been so long to sit back and talk to you like there's no other peeps and time was stopped by those frozen seconds and we keep on fooling there.

you can never go wrong with....

2009-03-23T04:07:00.000-07:00

>foods?
ayam goreng. ayam goreng tuh nggak pernah salah ya, dimana-mana tempatnya juga tetep aja enak. apalagi ayam goreng ala indonesia. kalo fried chicken yang pake tepung sih kadang2 ada yang ngga enak, tapi ayam goreng kampung tetep ga ada matinya (menurut gue loh ya)

>color?
although pink is my favourite, i also like to said, black never dies! Hitam emang nggak pernah salah dipake kemana-mana.. Putih juga sih. netral.

>shoes?
long life sneakers, especially converese. who doesn't?

>place?
my room is my sanctuary. ga ada yang pernah salah disini, well emang sih seringkali tuh pemicu masalah besar gue awalnya dari kamar, tapi ya at least you can always have your room to cry like a river and nothing can wipe your tears away and huggable as best as your guling di kasur :)

>pleasures?
Beach. Pantai emang always be the best. Ga ada yang bisa ngalahin keasikan jernihnya air laut, birunya langit and segernya angin laut. mantape.

>drinks?

aer mineral lah, dimana-mana rasanya sama aja kan. Beda sama air putih, kalo air putih mah beda2 rasanya, ada yang rasa keran, rasa besi -___- oh iya, coca cola juga never go wrong in every ocassion, eventhough that's unhealthy..

>person?

it's so hard to say cause you'll always have a problem (well at least once) with someone, but i like to choose.... my dad! i can never go wrong with him <3 Yah meskipun kadang suka selek dan gue juga bukan tipe yang deket-banget-ampe-curhat-segala-macem, but i knew he always love me unconditionally and always worry and care about me without asking my payback, yuhuu! (But i'd love to pay back everything he did for me, sure) And... my arga too. I think in most condition, he always be there for me and nothing can go wrong with him.. He's different with most of boys, i think, and he can accept me as who i am, even sometimes he can annoyed me much <3

what about you? i'd love to know it from your point of view :p

my custom sneakers and DS

2009-03-20T01:09:00.000-07:00

Months ago, George kindly bought me some Nike Air while he bought plenty for himself (yes yes he's a shoe mania). It's plain and white, you know how my reaction with those 'plainly-and-white' stuffs :p. So, i decided to custom it, inspired by many artist and how i wish to be like them.. I know this one is kinda looked like a crap, this is my first custom and i'm not an expert. But i'm pretty satisfied enough, and fyi, this shoes had done weeks ago go go and it's kinda bling cause i sprinkled some glitter dust to make it more...'ugh'. Made with sharpie and acrylic.

And the rest, i custom my DS casing too. Inspired by Dolce Deco from japan, i just want to add some 'cute touch' for it and make it looks like an eye candy. For those who claim the 'pink-haters', you might be hateee it so much :) And sorry if it's crap, i did it just for fun, though.

I just love to customized my stuffs, because it's one of a kind and you're the only one who have it. It brings a strange satisfaction, i guess.

pink baby :)

2009-03-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

Finally, my first purchased on ebay was arrived to me and i received it happily :) The package was quite sattisfying, it came with styrofoam, bubble wrap and she even wrapped with 'my mellody' gift paper, tee-hee.. Long live nice seller! No fraud and no carding..

She is so adorable :) Welcome to my house sweetie!

orang ajaib 2009

2009-03-18T02:37:00.000-07:00

Jadi gini.
Tadi siang gue pulang sekolah udah dengan santai dan damainya tuh, ditemani oleh si supir tercinta. Naah, teruus akhirnya mobil gua pun memasuki jalan setapak menuju rumah tersayang. Sampai akhirnya gue ngeliat pemandangan yang nauzubilaminzalib...

ADA OOM GA DIKENAL KENCING BERDIRI DENGAN SEENAK UDEL DI SELOKAN GUA

Gua dan supir gua yang berada di depan garasi pun hanya bisa menganga sambil ngeliatain tu orang. Dia seenak tainya parkir depan rumah gue dan maen pipis-pipis di selokan aja. Emang dikiranya rumah gue wc umum yee?? Lalu untuk beberapa saat, gue-supir gue dan si oom ajaib itu cuma saling liat-liatan. Sumpah dia ILOK bet ilok, ke gep yang punya rumah hahaha.. Akhirnya sambil meresleting celananya dengan muka TANPA salah tingkah ato malu sedikit pun, dia langsung tancap gas maen ngeloyor aja. Bangsaaat, kaga tau malu banget itu orang ya.. Gue dan supir gue bingung mau ketawa apa marah-marah. Untung aja tu dia ga ketemu bokap gue, kalo iya udah dimaki abis tuh. Berharap semoga selokan gue gak bau pesing, gue pun masuk ke dalam rumah sambil mendoakan kebahagiaan untuk oom ajaib tersebut. Ah mungkin dia memiliki sedikit keturunan anjing yang hobi buang air di sembarang tempat. Bahkan anjing pun gak gitu-gitu amat. Tapi ya sudahlah, dia cukup menjadi intermezzo di panasnya siang yang melelahkan ini.

it's friday13th everyone

2009-03-13T05:19:00.000-07:00

Geez everyone, say hi to jason and freddy! I hope tonight i wouldn't catch up with nightmare, tee-hee :D
Actually, today i'm free and went out in the morning for some tasty oxtail soup with my mom and aunty. The rest, i did nothing except surfs in the net all day. So called boring hmm, but i enjoyed a little time like this. Hell yeah, when you got no bucks in your pocket, online window shopping is the bestest idea to do, instead of heading to the mall . You don't have to go walking outside, just sit and explore everything from worldwides, isn't it?

Besides that, i spent my time with watching my lovely Dev Patel on his sitcoms, skins. Yeah, he is so cute,funny and...natural. It's wonderful to see a guy who didn't act or pretends like other spoiled brat, social climber or butt kisser in hollywood. Big claps to him. And i've been searching for Harry Treadaway too, but the result not so satisfying though. I want to know him mooore, duh, xD. I'm a big fan of him at the first sight. Really slightly first sight.

2 days ago, i went with my friends to watched a strangest-movie-which-ever-made, WHERE IN THE WORLD IS OSAMA BIN LADEN ? We simply had much argues before we decided what we gonna watch that time, and don't know why it comes to that movie. Oh what a waste with my IDR 20.000 :p And you know what? Almost my friends fell aslept during the movie(included me)! Okay, this movie wasn't that baaad. I'd learn pretty well from that, many peoples out there got no more freedom, even to speak or share their thoughts. So, they did terorism as an act to showing their participates in governs too. And christians or americans have no rules out there :P (in afghanistan and it's-kinda-countries,you know what i mean)
Enough to say then. That's pretty much.. Well have a nice day all of you guys and HAPPY FRIDAY 13th!

nb: still wondering why HBO or cinemax didn't show that movie today :9

if i born as a boy

2009-03-10T10:01:00.000-07:00

Okay, if I born as a boy, it would be like this.
I would growing up as a fighter
I study and learn hard more than everyone
While other boys playing video games, I would try my best at school
While other boys join the gang, I would took many courses
From football into piano classic, there’s nothing I can’t do
I don’t date girls, it just wasting time
Instead of pretty face, I prefer the unique and talented one
My dad would satisfy more and proud for having a son like me
I’m not a spoiled brat, even though I like to dressed well in labels
And I know how to manage money, as I can get my own bucks
I don’t fight like slums, in case there’s a criminal
And when I grow up
I join the military to fight for my nation
Arms not made to ruin people’s life, but to safe them
And I would giving my blood until the last drop
Even I’m not into harming war
I would die as a hero
And there would be just one girl in my whole life
To keep me and stay with me during the fight
Until forever
Once again, I would make my Dad proud
My mom too
My son and my wife
My country
And my Lord
I would not be just a part of something
But I’m that someone
Who makes changes even just a lil’ bit
I want all my life can be useful for others
I don’t want to be wasted
Growing up as a sinner and die as a jerk
Life isn’t just a game and I take my opportunities
For every little thing in my life, I always take something to learn
And belong to my believes, I always put God above all
Because of His grace and bless, I can stand and live my life to the fullest
I always thanks for everything which God has given to me
Then I would became a man
That no one can ever forget

annoying sense

2009-03-08T13:02:00.000-07:00

So i can't sleep now and all i can do is just stare in front my computer
And trying to type some words which are the rudest i ever used, but i'm not going to post it here
Then, let me recognize
Do you ever realize, for this seventeen months, i've tried so hard to show you HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?
but yeah, you'll never KNOW IT! because you won't open your eyes and your heart. why? because you were so SELFISH. you're a stonehead and none of anything can make you understand! All of your shit words, random judging and your fuckin anger
i'm just started to exhausted with those things, you know
you insist me and you treated me like i'm your doll but you know, i'm not. I'm not a toy, i have my life and i can arrange it as anything i want.
And nothing you say today will gonna bring me down. I just don't care. Every thing i did looks always WRONG for you and i can't make it right. Everytime i try to fix it, you ruin it.
Damn, why don't you just go to the graveyard? At least i can burry your head there.

Curently obsessed, saki yamashita

2009-03-06T00:02:00.000-08:00

Her works is much addictive and more like a drugs for me.. Again, japan was stole my heart through this sweetheart and makes me wonder if there's any places where i really want to go before i die, then it will be her store :D

pictures from junnie moon

It's such an eye candy when i saw her signatured doll, usaron (dreamy bunny). She twice held her exhibition at Junie moon, Japan, and her stuffs were sold there too, but it was about 2 years ago.. Unluckily, it was a limited edition (see, i have my ears for 'limited edition' thingy :D) and she customized blythe too.. Completely cuteness, thanks for makes me envy all the time, saki :) check her sites, http://www.cherrymerry.com/ and enjoy your calorie-free sugar and sweetness..

Nile Perch

2009-03-05T22:53:00.000-08:00

i found this cute store and i screamed inside my heart, oh how i fall in love with their stuff.. lace, bow and pink are their basic elements (which are my FAV) wish i can fly to tokyo now :D check em' out

They sell stuffs based on vintage toys such as rainbow brite, liddle kiddle, my little pony, etc. Such a heartrob and it was so cute, more cuter, compared to nowaday modern toys. More edgier and more attractive, they makes me gulp down.

view their full catalog at www.nile-jp.com

store review http://www.style-arena.jp/en/shop/0391.html

echoes in my head

2009-02-22T07:57:00.000-08:00

Why do you have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you

rendezvous

2009-02-16T06:58:00.000-08:00

if life is a wish that you can pop in a one blink of an eye, then i'll ask God this.
I want to live in the world, where it just belong to me and you
just the two of us or maybe with a little nice puppy
i don't want it to be that huge world, just.. a little planet could be perfect
maybe you see me as a freaky person
a little weird one who doesn't want make any social interaction
but you know, all people now are living in fraud
they fall for something that they might see it'll be good in their ass
harmless, i'll become one of them
but as long as i got you here, i don't need to be a skanky person
as i thought i can be anything else that i want, and i could
it doesn't matter if i want to be a frog under the sunny trees
or become a silly pop star
jump, leap into your arms and keep shouting your ears 'BOO!'
no more get hurt because all those fugly ppl who keeps their minds odds
well i can see honestly in your eyes
loyalty in your hands, and wisely in your feets
i dreaming if you're the only one person i've ever known in this world
so then i just keep thinking of you and no one else.
you're the candles which i blow in my birthday
you're the figure plastic toy guy in a wedding cake
you're the swarovski collar in a heiress' puppy
you're everything that you could be
and it always make sense to be with you
to be with person who loves me unconditionally
so do i will, spent my whole life with you
because it's written in God's destiny book

anyway happy 17months pumpkin ;p

slumdog millionaire

2009-02-13T05:54:00.000-08:00

jempol tangan kanan tangan kiri kaki kanan kaki kiri teracung semua deh buat film ini.

sumpah ya ini film keren banget, man. udah lama sih gue nontonnya tapi baru ngasi tau sekarang hahaha.

Pertamanya gue kira ini film india total, taunya made in british wekeke. Ceritanya nggak cheesy dan alurnya beneran seru.

Ceritanya tentang seorang cowok yang bernama Jamal yang jadi miliuner saat menangin who wants to be millionaire, tapi itu bukan cuma lucky semata men. Tiap pertanyaan yang dikasih ke dia (dan sukses dia jawab), selalu ada hubungannya dengan kehidupan dia dari kecil ampe sekarang yang bener2 ngajarin dia banyak hal, mulai dari yang bener2 pahit sampe manis. Gue bener2 ketawa dan pengen nangis di saat yang bersamaan. Kehidupan slumdog dia ternyata ngajarin banyaaak banget hal yang nggak akan kita dapet dari sekolah. Dan gue bener2 suka sama settingan Indianya. Pas banget kesan slumdog nya, bener2 ngegambarin kehidupan real disana tuh kaya apa.

1 lagi, gue sukaaaaa bangeeet sama Dev Patel, si pemeran utama. Dia satu-satunya aktor india yang mencuri hati gue lah hahaha. Dan ternyata dia emang udah di brit sedari lahir.. ini fotonya dia :

maaf kecil, tapi ganteng hahaha

Di film ini ada kalimat pembuka yang gue suka banget. Lupa persisnya sih, tapi kira2 intinya gini:

"How could this slumdog won and became millionaire?"

a. he's lucky

b. he's cheating

c. he's smart

d. it's written

d. it's written.

you said we were bestfriend

2009-01-19T08:54:00.000-08:00

where have you been?
i think you'll be there for me whenever i need you
like i'll always be
but now i can't find you
where are you?

gue butuh lo, gue lagi kalut dan gelisah
lo bisa buat gue tenang.
tapi kemana lo sekarang?
ini nih yang what we called 'friend' ?

telepon tengah malam

2009-01-19T08:13:00.000-08:00

gue ga bermaksud
menjadi stalker yang hobi meneror orang malam-malam
midnight calls is annoying, though.
but i really need to hear your voice gha
so i pick up my phone and dial your number
tut tut tut
diangkat.
suaranya lemes banget. lagi sakit dia ternyata.
Ngobrol lah kita. "kamu lagi apa, sakit ya, kemaren gimana, bla bla bla.."
dan tiba-tiba aja
Mendadak gue nangis. sumpah gatau kenapa tiba2 air mata keluar dan gue menangis sejadi-jadinya
dia heran. "kamu kenapa nangis?"
"Aku sendiri juga gak tau gha."
Semua air mata yang tumpah, itu wujud dari semua yang gue rasakan selama ini.
Gaperlu banyak bicara, air mata itu udah mengatakan semuanya
itu ekspresi dari amarah, kesal, benci, gemes, rindu, sayang, cinta.
Just listen
Then you will realize how much i miss you. friggin much
I don't know what should i say more

john pantau yang termehek-mehek

2009-01-11T04:47:00.000-08:00

gue bukan mau cerita tentang john pantau kok, hehe.
actually, itu judul drama kelas gue buat art class project (gaya bett gayaa!)
Yah, life is so called.. cliche, this lately. Nothing really2 electrify me, or almost shocking me down until got me beggin on my knees. nothing!
Moving class lagi2 lebih banyak negatifnya daripada untungnya. Ga semangat belajar abis gue. Yah, yang bikin gue seneng mungkin cuma pas rapotan doang. gue ranking 8 cuy, lumayan lah hahah. And the rest? still did nothing, just killing time with watching GG season 2 (ceritanya makin kaya tai aja) and went for saw 5 in cinema yang cuma bikin gue mual pulang2nya.
Yang gue tunggu-tunggu bulan ini cuman ret2 daaan.. arga's homecoming day! yay! nanti kalo ketemu pasti i'll give you my biggest hug and smoochy woocchy gha, even di depan si ambar tai hahaha.
hem gatau lagi mau nulis apa.
oh iya, i wanna show you guys something yang gue puengeeen bangeeeet (ampe kebelet eek nih ngomongnya) tapi di post selanjutnya deh hehe. makanya gue lagi pengen banget nyari duit. any job for me, anyone? (pekerjaan halal ye.) i'll do any commisions for youu, maybe with customized your things? ahhah. call me if you have any interest okeh.

Best i ever had

2009-01-07T07:44:00.000-08:00

hari ini sungguh berat wey, jakarta emang keras.. tapi thanks ya semua yang tadi, hahaha. Berasa maen kucing-kucingan gue.. plus sakit perut pula, untung aja tadi pada ngejayus. (haha bukannya tambah sakit?)
Pergi sekolah bawa tas, pulang-pulang udah kaga bawa haha
Hmm gue be to the te nichhhhh :(
Gue sakit perut.
Gue kangen cowok gua
Pulang dong lo.... semoga aja janjinya mau pulang tanggal 15 tuh bener. awas aja kalo kaga, gue demo trus gue bakar ye kampus lo. Gue taroin bom, TNT, mercon, petasan uler, petasan cina
ah, bos banget sih gue.
hufh.. Gue bener-bener butuh seseorang untuk tempat bersandar, berleha-leha, bermanja, bercerita, bersenda ria, ber jayus jayus dan mau dengerin semua keluh kesah gue. Bukannya nimpalin dengan ceritanya sendiri di saat gue lagi mau curhat. Mau dengerin apa aja yang gue ceritain termasuk topik gapenting kayak semalem gue mimpi manjat monas dan betapa pengennya gue makan es krim pake oreo dan honey stars.
Dan juga menimpalinya dengan baik bukan basa-basi
Orang yang mau gue share tentang semua impian dan cita-cita gue serta menghibur gue di kala gue habis dibantai sama nyokap. Orang yang bilang bahwa gue adalah perempuan yang paling cantik se-dunia di saat gue kumel serta lagi merasa paling jelek. Orang yang selalu bisa nenangin gue pas gue nelpon dia sambil nangis-nangis dan bilang bahwa semuanya akan baik aja karena gue punya dia di samping gue. Orang yang jagain gue di kala gue sakit. Orang yang selalu cemburu di kala gue sms cowo lain. Orang yang akan selalu mencintai gue apa adanya dalam susah maupun senang, bukan ada apanya.
Dan orang itu cuma elo gha...
Cuma elo. Meskipun kadang elo suka gak peka, meskipun kadang gue suka menuntut keromantisan yang lebih dari elo, tapi elo tetap yang paling paling.
Best i ever had deh kalo digambarkan dengan lagu.
Makanya gue bisa stay 15 bulan (udah mau 16 nih tgl 15 ntar) sama elo. Elo doang. Yah belom selama elo sama mantan lo sih, yang udah 3 tahunan.
Tapi gue merasa paling cocok sama elo.
Cuma lo orang yang paling sabar ngadepin kelakuan gue. Gatau dah apakah gue yang lebay, tapi hati gue merasa begitu. Lo bisa jadi apa aja yang gue butuhkan. Pacar, abang, sahabat, ayah hahaha. Gue tau, kalo kita lagi berantem pasti gue bawaanya pengen ngapus postingan ini hahah suka lebay deh gua. Tapi yah inilah wujud lo gha, dalam benak gue. Dalam imaji gue ya lo tuh kayak gini. Gue gatau apakah ini aslinya lo apa bukan. Tapi gue harap begitu.
Jangan berubah ya gha.. Maaf kalo gue egois. Gue harap penilaian gue ke elo tuh nggak salah. gue harap, semua yang udah lo tunjukin ke gue selama 15 bulan ini adalah sifat asli lo. Gue harap, waktu dan jarak ga akan ngerubah apapun di antara kita. Cinta bisa dateng dan pergi, tapi gue harap lo tetep stay di hati gue dan sebaliknya. Karena lo udah gue rantai. Ga akan gue lepas lo, lagi.
thanks for everything gha.. wish i can tell it right in front of yer face now.

P.S : gha seandainya kalo kamu baca postingan ini, sms aku segera. Kasi tau semua yang ada di pikiranmu.

best friend forever

2009-01-06T07:30:00.000-08:00

Kemaren malem rasanya gue bener-bener pengen nangis
Nangis sejadi-jadinya, sekejernya
Tapi entah kenapa air mata gue gak keluar.
Gue harap keputusan gue tepat

“Gue bahagia kok kalo lo bahagia”
Thanks, for being my friend
And it will always be
We are best friend. Forever
You can always count on me
Start from this midnight, till morning and so on.

sorry for those bullshits above
maybe it wont be that honest
tapi lo sahabat gue yang sangat, paling gue sayangi
wtf

maafkan aku pah haha

2009-01-04T04:13:00.000-08:00

jadi pada suatu sore yang damai,
gue lagi makan es krim cone di rumah nih (kagatau juga ni eskrim darimana)
trus gue nongkrong aje di tangga. nontonin (ngeliatin kali yee) bokap gue lagi mau siap2 maen tenis. kan kaca tuh posisinya di bawah tangga ya, jadi gue asik makan es krim sambil ngeliatin bokap lagi sisir menyisir rambutnya yang jarang-jarang itu (bokap gue boteng, botak tengah hahaha)
eh es gue mulai agak mencair tuh. dan tiba-tiba aja, plek.
jatoh lumayan banyak ke botaknya kepala bokap gue
wakakakakaka bokap gue kaga sadar pula! heran gue, kok bisa dia nggak ngeh gitu ada apaan tau dingin-dingin jatoh ke kepalanya? sumpah geli abis gue liat genangan putih-putih di kepala bokap gue, pas bener lagi tempatnya
Dan akhirnya dengan pedenya bokap pun berangkat maen tenis tanpa tahu apa yang terjadi pada dirinya. wuahah gue ga berhenti ngakak sendiri, bahkan meskipun pas lagi dimarah2in emak gue yang bawel nyuruh2 nyapu.
hah kangen gue sama bokap. tapi gini2 dulu gue macam penjilat juga. dulu pas sd kan kakak gue beli pemutih rambut di tukang2 gaje depan sd kita (sumpah gue juga kagatau itu apaan, lo liat aja dari namanya udah meyakinkan huaha) terus dengan semangat gue aduin dia ke bokap biar dia dimarahin dan gue jadi yang baek2nya haha..
trus kata emak gue sih, dulu gue suka makein bando, pita2, kunciran jepit rambut sgla macem ke kepala bokap gue pas lagi nerima tamu hahaha.. jatuh lah wibawa dia sebagai komandan di mata anak buahnya (ga sopan bgt ya gue pas bocah)
malu kali ya bokap punya anak kayak gue.. gue juga dulu pernah ngencingin sajadah temennya bokap haha.. tapi gitu-gitu dulu gue anak kesayangan dia. dulu sih. sekarang mah -__-
anyway, i really miss that time dad.. it's been so long since i never see your gooffyyy smiles again. pertama kalinya sejak smp gue ngerasain digandeng bokap (sampe sekarang sih belom lagi -__-) pas kemaren masuk rumah hantu.. it felt so awkward because you never show or expressing your affection to me before.
but i promise, i will make you proud dad. i'll do my best, i'll try.

i'm so lost without you

2009-01-03T10:06:00.000-08:00

so here i am, at 01.00 am
can't sleep or even close my eyes
because your shadow lying right in front of my eye
lemme get back to the past
to the time when you were here by my side

aku inget sama hal-hal kecil yang udah kamu perbuat
surpise, kamu bukan orang yang romantic, tapi kamu berhasil
bikin aku speechless
mungkin buat orang itu udah biasa, tapi buat aku luar biasa
karena itu kamu..
pas kita 8 bulanan ya?
kamu bela2in ke komplek aku jam 12
tiba2 udah nyengir depan pager
hujan-hujanan, aku tau kamu kedinginan
bawain mawar sebuket. sumpah aku gatau mesti naro dimana
aku jadiin pot pouri. haha. meski sembunyi2, tapi aku tetep seneng
emang kamu tuh ya,
disaat aku lagi bete, tiba2 aja suka ada mawar nyembul di pager
aku tanem di tanah, layu gataunya.
blueberry cheesecakemu rasanya manis kayak kamu
gelas kamu yang udah kamu lukis2 sepenuh hati dipake minum keluargaku tanpa ada yang sadar
aku suka diboncengin kamu pas hujan, tetep hangat entah kenapa
maaf aku suka rewel kalo diajak jalan.. kamu udah cape2 tapi akunya manja banget
makasih untuk kesabarannya
lucu juga pas kita nyanyi2 lagu special bareng di kelas sambil berdebat soal liriknya
kamu nyebelin pas aku kasih teka-teki logika, tapi kamu bisa jawab semua.
makasih udah ngajarin matematika pas istirahat.
aku grogi ketemu mama papa kamu di rumah kamu, haha
pake dialog palsu
aku miris ngeliat kamu kurus banget pas sakit
makasih udah nemenin aku di puskesmas dan kamu udah kaya suami yang nungguin istrinya haha

1 blog ga akan cukup kalo aku tulis semua yang aku inget tentang kamu
sekarang kita udah gabisa lagi ngulang masa-masa itu
karena terpiah jarak.
gabakalan lagi bisa nge-gajelas berdua
gabakalan lagi bisa mukul-mukulin kamu dan nyabutin bulu kakimu
gabakalan lagi diiketin tali sepatu sama kamu
untuk sekarang.
tapi aku yakin
3 tahun lagi pasti bisa.
ato setahun lebih lagi, kalo aku bisa kuliah di bandung
semua akan kembali seperti 15 bulan yang lalu.

i'll waiting for you dear
i'm so lost without you here
and still waiting for you to reply my messages
but seems you'd already fell aslept
it's okay
i wish you were here in my dream
tonight

thai designer

2009-01-02T02:36:00.000-08:00

thai designers really amaze me, ow yeah!
i never realized that bangkok is so urban and, even i'm not into urban-culture-freak, but still their design is totally edgy, dramatic and fantastic! i forgot some of their name but i remember one, weisschwarz (www.weisschwarz.com). i bought 2 tees from here with awesome price :D Her cloth line is so cool and she also doing graphic deisgn too. her style is shorta femme dreamy and pop yet. her store in jatujak market is so cute and bring some wonderland-atmosphere! yeah, there's so many creative ppl in jatujak (which grew some enviness on me) and they really, really inspires me. when i walked my feet on that market, i can't stop admiring them! and there's onestore which sells hand-painted plushies and it was so friggin awehsomeee! (i bought one, pic soon :)
besides jatujak, i saw many local designers in siam paragon's department store. badly, forgot their name. but, oh my dear.. i taking a deep breath when first i saw it. their store was decorated uniquely and so terrific cute. but, their price is so unfriendly, tee-hee :D i wish they would sell many cute things in such a lower price. yeah can't blame them, however their price is reasonable.. and what most i love too, many ppl here loves blythe as much as i am :)) i found so many sellers displayed their blythe doll on their store. There's even a blythe store (official one) in central world but still, the price is making me crayyyzy! pretty expensive huh! so i choose pullip, the petite one. yeah shorta dissatisfied but still, me lovey it <3
anyway, they really inspires me and someday i want to be like them.. yawn, this is so called unreachable dream but still, i gotta work hard to do it. i don't want to be just a graph designer anyway, i want to design clothes and stuff. i love cute thingy :3 just wish me luck, kay!

happy new year!

2009-01-01T23:00:00.000-08:00

happy new year 2009 all! :D
semoga semua bakal baik-baik aja, sukur2 bisa bertambah baik, ameen.
gatau lagi gue mau ngomong apa. haha. kalo bikin resolusi pasti ujung-ujungnya berantakan.
huff i won't bother with this silly thingy, i just hope and pray :
que sera sera
whatever will be, will be
the future is out to see
que sera sera

-with tons of love, asi natalia hutauruk

happy birthday and bla bla bla

2008-12-09T23:13:00.000-08:00

eh orang-orang
hmm biasanya lo kalo ngucapin selamat ulang tahun ke orang, kayak gimana?
hmm kalo yang mainstream sih biasanya gini ya, (contoh:)
selamat ulang tahuun blabla! semoga panjang umur, sehat2, banyak rezeki, semoga tambah bla bla bla bla bla dll etc
atau :
happy birthday blabla! wish you all the best and may God bless youu bla bla bla bla dll etc
hm tapi seiring zaman, ucapan 'semoga' atau 'wish you' itu udah hilang dilekang waktu men (asek) dan berganti menjadi:
"selamat ulang tahun blabla-ku sayang! TRAKTIRANNYA ya jangan lupa!"
semua wish dan semoga-semoga itu digantikan menjadi : ditunggu ya traktirannya, jangan lupa ya makan-makannya bla bla bla dan yang berhubungan dengan yang gratis-gratis.
hmm sebenarnya minta traktir sih udah dari dulu-dulu juga ye, tapi kayaknya orang sekarang ga peduli juga kalo lo mau ulang tahun lo mau bertambah jadi apa, atau semoga jadi apa. hahaha ya ga penting juga sih ya, toh perkataan (atau mungkin tulisan!) manusia ga bakalan merubah nasib yang udah digariskan sama Tuhan (au au)
tapi nggak ada salahnya juga kan ngedoain orang? hehe. kali-kali aja terkabul. untung di elo juga kan, kalo bikin doa kaya gini:
happy bday ya zz, semoga lo cepet kaya yaa, terus mendadak menang undian 1 trilyuun and then lo bisa ngebeliin gue yah setidaknya bentley aja deh terus semoga lo menang kuis yang hadiahnya ke paris itu lhoo and lo bisa ngajak gue sekalian juga yaa

APAA DAH

2008-11-30T07:58:00.000-08:00

Gile sabtu kemaren gem to the por banget.
Karena pengen beli bahan mading, akhirnya tim mading pun ngebolang ke jatinegara sama tebet. Haha tempatnya ga lazim buat beli bahan mading yak? Kita nyari sampe ke pasar2 gitu. Seru banget dah, baru kali ini gue kesana (norak). Gue menemukan berbagai hal yang menarik di jalan. Sampai akhirnya gue masuk ke sebuah toko kecil di jatinegara namanya apatau gitu deh ya lupa. Terus ya, gue tercengang.
Berasa di surga deh.
Lebay ya, ahaha bodo daah.
Di dalem tuh ada toko alat2 lukis gitu, bermacem macem.. Mana harganya miring-miring bgt lagi. Sumpah deh tangan gue gatel pingin borong semua. Jadilah gue blanja blanji barang-barang gajelas. Terus gue juga beli fabric marker heheh <3>
Next, kita ke pasar tebet. Disini juga seru men, kita pun langsung berburu bahan, soalnya mading nya mau pake kain2 gituu. Terus gue beli pita2 sama tali manik2 lucu banget deh ya ya, harganya meriah lagi. Terus temen2 gue pada bikin headband gitu dari yang tadi kita beli. gue juga beli dasi kupu2 bentuk pita item gitu,keren deh kalo dipake.
Pulang dari sana, gue langsung ngebikin tas di rumah pake bahan2 yang dibeli tadi. Rasanya tangan gateel gitu pengen bikin apaan. Jadinya gini niih :

kaga mungkin dipake kan ya, ekstrim banget? ahahahah

02.00 AM, subway train, quiet, fast, desolate, leak lights, right song, with you.

2008-11-25T07:04:00.000-08:00

this situation could be perfect for us dude,

nyepidol

2008-11-21T09:40:00.000-08:00

Gue punya kegiatan baru yang agak-agak autis nih. But it's loaded of fun. Worth to try!
Kagiatan ini saya sebut nyepidol
Dari kata ngelem sih. Cuma lem nya diganti spidol aja. Bukan sembarang spidol tapi pake spidol PENTEL N850 permanent marker. Jadi ini adalah kegiatan mengendus-endus spidol.
Coba deh.
Sumpah baunya enak banget, gue ga bohong.
Bau cherry2 gitu. Lebih enak dari aibon. gue juga bingung kok bisa ya?
Dan juga jauh lebih elit dibandingkan bocah ngelem.
Gatau deh beracun apa kaga. Tulisannya sih 'no xylene & toluene'.
Apaan lagi tuh..
ya kalo pengen mengisi waktu dengan kegiatan yang tidak berguna sih coba aja.
Tapi awas aja idung lo jadi item-item. hahaha..

yearning all day

2008-11-21T09:36:00.001-08:00

sit or sleep, grab my comfort position and begin to daydreaming.
oh gee i think i'm yearning someone.

another love lesson, peeps

2008-11-21T08:52:00.000-08:00

hey world.
mau cerita dong gue. bukannya mau ikut campur urusan orang sih..
jadi kan gini ya, gue punya temen cewek dan mari kita sebut saja dia si K.
si K ini punya pacar yang mari kita sebut saja dengan inisial F. mereka sudah berpacaran selama 1 tahun (alah cacu banget sih kata2 gue) sedari kelas 1. dulu sih emang kayanya bae2 aja yaa. tapi semenjak kelas 2 ini sih ya gue ngerasa si F rada aneh dan cuek aja ke K. kalo sepenglihatan gue sih kayaknya si F ini ketemu si K cuma buat numpang minta makan ama beli pulsa, zz.
K juga pernah cerita ke gue kalo F ini lg deket sama cewe (aneh deh bedua, pacaran tapi ngaku kalo dekat ama org lain -__-) dan si K agak2 gimanaa gitu (kalo gue mah udah gue gamparin tu cowo gue) dan gue kasian ngeliatnya. dan bener ajaa akhirnya mereka tuh putus.
Sumpah ya tu F babi banget kaga jantan abis masa mutusin di msn coba.. what kind of guy tuh. dan gue kasian ngeliat si K kayaknya stres abis.. nangiis terus. Dan si K ini punya kebiasaan buruk sejak smp, yakni mengiris-iris pergelangan tangan dengan silet. aih horor gue ngeliatnya. katanya sih dia nyilet2 sambil ga sadar gitu. dia juga ga ngerasa sakit. ajegile.. banyak bgt bekasnya. terus si K uda berusaha mengontak kembali si F, meng-sms maupun testi2 tapi dibalesnya dingin-dingin kuku gitu. Ya kayak dicuekin. Kasian ya secara temen gue cewe gitu.. semua foto cowoknya gada yang diapus, malah ditaro fs dan dijadikan screensaver hp. omg. kalo gitu kapan lupanya sayang. terus dia bilang gamau ngapus karena gamau lupain si F tsb. hanya F lah yang akan selalu ada di hatinya -_____- gue suruh cari gebetan gitu dianya gamau dan gabisa. hmm emang susah kalo kita udah termasuk tipe orang yang sekali-cinta-cinta-serius-banget-dah (sebenernya sih gue juga tipe seperti itu hehee )
Padahal kan ya, ada orang bilang kalo kita sayang sama orang (ato pacaran gitu) jangan kasih hati 100%. fifty-fifty aja, biar kalo brokeen ga sakit-sakit banget. tapi gue gabisa kaya gitu (at least gue ngasih 95% laah). dulu pas pacaran pertama kali, pas putus tuh yang namanya bener2 daleeem.. sedih abis gue, pas tau si mantan suka ama orang lain, rasanya hati bagai dibilah dengan pisau parang (lebay aah) tapi beneran gue down abis. tapi sekarang kalo diinget lagi sih ya malah bikin pengen ketawa. betapa bodohnya gue masa itu. percaya deh, kalo lo lagi ada masalah kaya gini-gini (NOT including family problems please) pasti pas lo inget2 lagi nati pas udah dewasa, bakal ketawa deh. Kita bakal ngetawain kebodohan kita. Jadi yaa santai aja ya kalo ada masalah kayak gini.. sakit dalam cinta-cintaan itu mah biasa ya my pren, jadi ya jangan ampe deh lo menyakiti diri sendiri. kalo gamau sakit yah jangan pacaran. haha. TAPI, i believe there's still a lot of people out there who not gives up their love THAT EASILY. gue tau kok, some kind of ppl bakal ngerasa susah untuk throwing up their love away, mungkin karena bayang2 masa launya kuat banget ato ada kenangan yang emang gabisa dilupain. Percuma aja mau kita bilang 'life's must goes on' tapi ya kalo emang uda sedih banget ya mau gimana lagi. Okelah feeling blue like that asal gak yang jadi ngerugiin diri sendiri sampe orang lain juga. Just learn from that and do not keep the pain, take it as lesson. Even for my self, i believe that someday i will laugh to the loudest when i'm looking back on my past love-life. So, just live for tomorrow.. Yesterday has gone and there's nothing to take from it, except lesson.

keluarga cemara

2008-11-17T08:27:00.001-08:00

COMING SOON!

mezzopiano day

2008-11-17T06:06:00.000-08:00

hello semua, hehe et dah perasaan lama banget dah nggak nge-post, cekeceke hahaha :D

Begini nih teman-teman, jadi kaan kemaren aku tuh ke mcd yaaa. Dan lo tau gaaa seeeh, duuuh, ya ampuun! ituu...aah aaah..! huu, omaigaaat omaigosh...!gile,suer ckckck aah aah paraah, anjriiit (lebay bgt gila)

haha sori2. nah balik lg ke topik awal, jadi kaan kemaren tuh aku ke mcd yaa sama kawan-kawankyu. terus gue niatnya nggak mau makan tuh gara-gara udah kenyang. eh terus gue liat mainan happy meal nya deh. lucu banget! temanya tentang mezzopiano gitu (bagi yang gatau what the hell this thing is, go to google meen) dan gue rada heran karena brand itu kan rada2 ga eksis disini (it's came from japan). biasanya kan hadiahnya yang berbau karakter western toys gitu? but who cares, i really looves it! susaah cari barangnya disini. eh tau2 nongol di mcd hehe. nih yang gue pilih, here it is :

this is a lovely berry box with handkerchief. sori fotonya jelek, aslinya lucuu

terus kan malem2nya gue jalan ya. pas gue mampir ke fancy shop gitu, eh nemu dompet yang gambarnya mezzopiano jugaa :D beli deh heheh

cute! dan bahannya baguus

haha gitu deh temen-temen.. entah kenapa banyak yang komplen, katanya 'udah smu kok sukanya ngoleksi gini-ginian' tapi yaudahlaahyaa ya namanya juga hobi. kan yang penting yahud. salahkan aja orang yang hobinya ngoleksi ikan arwana 10 juta, itu lebih aneeh kaan. ikan kan gabisa ngapa2in, dipake juga gabisa,bisa mati lagi (10jt oh 10jt terbuang). haha yang penting as long as you happy and not make any harm with other, then there's no need to be shy. ah kok jadi ga nyambung sih ama tema postingan, pokoknya i love mezzopiano hhe, if you know where to buy mp stuff, tell me yaw and i'll give you a kiss hehe

life's a bitch then you die

2008-11-11T07:38:00.000-08:00

my boyfr got into the hospital. i hope he will get well soon. boy oh boy i need him right now.. i need his shoulder to cry on.. i just can't doing nothing without his support. i really need to see those eyes, hear the voice, feel his skin and every parts of him to make me feel allright. oh jesus, i can't felt my bones here. i'm so sorry for being a sinner and maybe this all was your punishment for me..

fucking week (a lot)

2008-11-09T08:07:00.000-08:00

i hate this week. nyebelin tau gak.

hasil ulangan udah keluar. kan pake ljk tuh. dan lo harus tau scanner nya tuh butut banget sialan. ngescan nama aje ga bener (cont: asi otalia) gimane mau meriksa jawaban? buletannya udah gue bikin hati2 bgt padahal. jadi banyak remed deh, huhu.. mau nangis gue ngeliatnya. padahal ada yang gue uda yakin banget tuh. najis bgt tau ga sih. dan ini tidak cuma berlaku pada gue doang
sempet selek ama temen, oh gaenak bgt
kemaren pas jalan sama anak2 kena sial banget. mobilny kesenggol baret parah abis, film yang mo ditonton banget malah ga ada, udah capek-capek ke mall lain tapi ga boleh masuk (pake seragam lupa bawa jaket) aah non sense..
cowo gue pulang ke jkt. tapi dalam keadaan sakit tipes ato db gitu, tepar banget gabisa ketemu. pengen jenguk tapi gatau rumahnya dimana,trus nyokap gue lagi di jkta so gue gabisa pergi kemana2 apalagi ke rumah dia. trus dia lupa bawa chargeran hpnya, so hpnya mati gabisa dipake jadi gue gabisa kontekan sama sekali ama dia, AAH FUCK LAH NJING gue gabisa nyalahin siapa2 karena gue juga kasian ama dia
and the last one is my personal problem, but it hurt me so fucking deep, really.

ah sialan, gue pengen nangis deh (seesh ngapain gue bilang-bilang ya) besides, i really felt so fucking lonely, unused and depressed. yeah this sounds so fucking pathetic and you guys are be able to laugh as LOUD as YOU CAN. you can say that i'm an 'alay yang sok-sok sedih' or whateverr because that's ALL right, i'am. well i'm on my way to trash not just because those probs that i mentioned above, there's still alot like fuck. jjawn! and you shouldn't read this post if you don't want to because this one is so fucking unimportant. since it's my blog, i can post anything i want eventough it's were trashy and smells like poo. oh yeah sorry for my languange because you know i'm so fuckin pissed out now.

found accidently

2008-11-05T06:27:00.000-08:00

lagi iseng2 eh nemu nggak sengaja.. dulu gak gue scan, eh ternyata ada di blog nya temen gue haha.. et ah bikinnya ga modal, minjem spidolnya bocil ama pulpen faster gatau punya siapa haahaaa. tapi jelek2 gini bisa masuk juga, ckck emang dinilainya berdasarkan apa sih. penasarn ey

currently mind

2008-11-04T08:44:00.000-08:00

gejala tipes. yeah. thats what you've got when you just messed yourself around and being careless with all your shit happen, studied like hell till ignored if thats night or noon, boy. Eats everything unhygienic till you got your self comma in the hospital room (yawn, i hope this wont happen dear haha). oh my boooyfr, who will take some care for you when this all happened?
me sick too deree, i've got sorethroat and coughs a lotcha, can't stop it ( and it was so itchyyyy). i thought we had a little connection? just like.. mm what should i called it, telephaty? teeheee, such an ass.. everytime i got my self bad, then i got you too.
i miss you but i'm not in hurry or what. no baby, i'm not being such a lame bitch who always ask you to come here, and say i miss yeew in so many many times that will make you sick. and i'm such a BIG FATSO LIAR when i'm saying those words, tahaahah.. but i do care with all your kinda college stuff, so i will understand (oh my..) and not willing to insist and being such a jerk. i want to make you comfortable, just like your own home, and try to not bein selfish. but baby, can you keep your self and please do care about yours? bussines is bussy but don't ever try to mess up with your body. you can't buy health, you know that so do the people around you. or around the world.
cupcake, i'm not ask any attention from you cause you got your self busy around your stuff which aren't mine. yeaah baby, you wont have a little time to have some fool with me, it's okay. even when you're not into any assigns, you spends your time in your bed. take a nap. no time to call or short message. it's okay, i'm all right. and everytime you see those italic words in this pharagraph, it means lie. fake. tons of it. i had two sided face. one is a cool side and other is a cheesy side. so you can guess which side i used when i talk with you.
yown deere, take care of yourself.. i don't have any idea what should i say more. suddenly i felt so pathetic, being here without you as my boyf. no attend to any of my day and rarely made me want to cry a river. no need to moves no need to grooves when you're not around. oh yaun i should leave him alone and stop bothering him. so i guess i just considered to feeling loon-lie (oh bitch read it lonely or crazy lies). and i'm pretend everything just fine as fine as heaven far from hell. oh wtf. but everytime when you feel the same with me, i always here. you can count on me. i love you. whatsoeva

random work

2008-11-03T03:37:00.001-08:00

i've added some of old, random work. umm..

carnival girl

music monster (?)

5 things i want to do with my boyf

2008-11-03T00:10:00.000-08:00

go to the waterpark together. maybe waterboom could be perfect for us! playing macaroni tube together and drown his head into the water, splashing around and play into the child's pool!
doing some art collabo. he draw the lines i do the rest, hehee.. we should be working together, right darla? you do such a great vector job, i envy you :p
join for the amazing race, together baby! we'll be a good team (or maybe not, you and me are such a selfish nigga) and you'll do all the worse task and i'm... just watch! heehe :D you are smart, such a great thinker and i... a good moneylicker! but it will be fun honey, i'm pretty sure we're gonna win this thing if we join it.
travelling around the world. from mystic mongol to fabulous fiji, we would have such an amazing adventures that we will never imagine before! go dig some ancient gold or live in life of urban street, drown into the antartica and ride an elephant in india, everything will be 100x weirder if i having him by my side!
bomb some doods in nyc streets. mmm we could be look a like a gangster and i know you hate that look, but sure it will be a pretty pretty fuckin awesome experience :p oh, dream...

song

2008-11-02T23:59:00.000-08:00

this is an old song and this lyric is sometimes echoes in my head. can't help my self to (almost) cry when listen it

Yeah…
Its my life…
My own words I guess…
Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they’re your heart
And you know you were their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rock-a-by-baby...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it witcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show `em that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

[Chorus]

Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you made Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

(when i'm gone-eminem)

last night

2008-11-02T23:56:00.000-08:00

gila.. semalem gue bener2 yang namanya gak bisa tidur.
bawaannya gelisah terus.. guling kesana kesini.. gue udah sengaja nge-capek2in diri biar bisa tidur pules tapi tetep aja gak ngaruh..
di sekolah juga gue ga ngantuk sama sekali.
why oh why?

i'm afraid i couldn't sleep again tonight

high school musical 3

2008-11-02T05:28:00.000-08:00

wow.. between all high school musical series, this one is the best yeah, no need to ask again, haha :D
loves, all the songs-choreo-costumes-properties and settings, just perfectly and amusing like watch the real broadway (and sharpay's scene is the best!) and the story is, yeaa kinda cliche but who cares as long as they got terrrific moves!
in the cinema, there are so many kiddos went with their parents, so the cinemas became so noisy and it such an awkward to seen those munchkin crowds in the middle of the night :p
anyway, you have to watch it, even you aren't a disney mania (but i'am!) i love ashley and lucas, they're pretty cute together, why they don't going out together? (ashley is already with jared, unfortunately :c )

spooky nightmare

2008-10-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

gila, semalem tuh ya, gue bener2 dapet apa yang namanya mimpi buruk (aseek)
kan kemaren ceritanya gue lagi sakit tuch yaa. pusing2 radang tenggorokan lemes kaya apaan tau tuh, nah pas pulang abis nganter bokap, gue langsung tefar di rumah. baru bangun jam 11 malem. mandi terus tidur jam setengah 1.
dan pas gue tidur.. jeng jeng. mimpi gue sereem banget (menurut gue loh yaa)
jadi gue ada di suatu tempat nih. terus ada profesor2 yang berusaha membuat suatu mahluk yang sangat berguna bagi kehidupan manusia, cara berkembang biaknya sangat mudah, tinggal ditanem aja, cabut, terus kita piara deh (wtf?)
tapi ternyata mereka melakukan kesalahan besar.. mahluk yang ditanem itu ternyata malah malfungsi jadi monster pemakan manusia. pertama numbuh, kaya tunas kecil gitu. terus lama-lama jadi bayi (lo harus tauu bayinya warnanya ijo penuh lumut gitu dan kaya busuk-busuk menjijikan gitu) dan mereka mulai memangsa manusia. mungkin kalo gue yang ceritain keliatannya biasa ajei ya, ga ada seremnya, tapi gue panik bgt di mimpi itu dan lari-lari kesana sini nyari jalan keluar, tapi ga ada. gue nangis dan bener-bener capek, sumpah baru kali ini gue ngerasa semuanya berasa nyata bgtt. jangan-jangan gue sempet ngigau lagi. pokoknya pas gue bangun, gue legaa banget.
well, sering sih kejadian kayak gini, dimana mimpi tuh rasanya nyataa banget. ada yang ampe bikin gue bangun tengah malem keringetan dan langsung treak 'ya tuhan!' dan itu bikin gue jadi takut tidur lagi..
do nightmare usually mean something? gee i hope not :( serem gila kalo kejadian beneran hahaha.. oh god, semoga malem ini gue mimpi indah yaa amiin..

happy reading game (norakk)

2008-10-27T02:51:00.000-07:00

read this secret message!

PACARKU SAYANG AKUKANGEN DEH SAMA KAMU CUPCUP MUAH DASAR JELEK LOO LEK LEK HUHUHU

and this one,

i love my boyfriend and i miss him so much and blah blah aduh gapenting banget seeh eeh iseng deh ya si aci hahahahahahah sorii for wasting your time but i enjoyed this much this is (should be) fun!! ahahah lovyau bebeh good tlaak

happy reading! white could hide all black but not erase it, just let it behind

jumat-sabtu!

2008-10-27T02:13:00.000-07:00

jumat-sabtu kemaren, gue kan ikut lomba padus rokris ya. awalnya sih iseng doang ikut2 biar nambahin nilai agama tapi ternyata keasikan haha. pas hari jumatnya, lumayan bagus tuh menurut gue. tapi ga pede juga ya secara lawannya suaranya pada angelic gitu :D hem yaudadeh karena pasrah pesimis kalah akhirnya gue spik ijin pulang ama temen2 gue. tapi males banget balik ke sekolah kan mesti belajar lagi, yaudah kita jalan dah ke citos yang deketan. ilok banget tuh gatau mau ngapain akhirnya pada nonton deh. 3 temen gue memutuskan nonton laskar plangi dan yaaah gue udah denger sih semua orang bilang itu 'bagyuus, syediiih, bikin nangis deeech' tapi entah kenapa hati gue menolak karena gue lagi males nonton yang sedih-sedih. yauda dee gue dan seorang teman nonton kutunggu jandamu. kwerenz abhes khaan ya tapi gapapa deh ngakak ngakak geli liat persik bohay tapi ya berhubung kami wanita jadi ya nggak ngerasa apa-apa tuch, dan semua orang di bioskop pada berisikk. gela tuh film ilok banget. yaudadeeh, terus karena tuh film selesai duluan akhirnya kita muter2 pengen jajan. tapi alangkah salah waktunya karena kita belon dikasih duit jajan ya secara ini akhir minggu jadi rada seret dah. mana gue pengen makan yang manis-manis. lalu kita berhenti di depan sebuah tempat es krim.

vijai : "c gue pengen makan yang ini nih gelaa enak banget nih"
aci : "hayuuk jai gile enak tapi harganya berape ye?"
-bengong sesaat depan toko es krim berdiri dengan pedenya-
aci : "kita pt-pt yuk jai belinya, makan berdua!"
vijai: "ayok! tapi lo intipin dulu deh ke dalem liat berapa harganya!"
aci : "dari luar aja deh yaa.. ilok banget masuk ke dalem udah disapa mbak-mbaknya tapi langsung keluar lagi ga beli'"
-berusaha ngintip harga sekuat tenaga dari kaca jendela dengan badan miring2-
vijai: "berape ci?"
aci : "gile jai.. sekilas sih gue melihat angka 50rb."
vijai: "....."

yaudah lah ye gajadi, harga segitu bisa dapet 2 cake juga kan. akhirnya kita ke bread talk aja tiramisu. trus temen gue yg lain nyuruh ke coffe bean buat ngumpul bareng. akhirnya kita be2 kesana. tapi pas itu kursinya mereka udah pas ber4 jadi ya mesti ke meja baru lagi. dan eheem, sopan banget ye masuk ke toko orang ga beli apa2 terus duduk seenaknya makan makanan dari luar. akhirnya kita diskusi lagi. tapi sukurlh teman gue menggeser duduknya dan kita be2 pun bisa empet2an makan kue diem2.

haha kok jadi cerita jalan2nya ya? sok atuh lah balik ke topik awal, akhirnya guru gue menelepon kalo kita masuk 10 besar. masti latian 1 lagu lagi buat besok. anjiir mepet bgt dah, dan bener deh besoknya kacau wau wau banget. pada cemfreng dan kita udah yakin sepenuh jiwa tuh kalo kalah. uda gitu gue dan teman-teman malah ngetawain cewek yang nyanyinya luebaay buanget kayak kita uda paling ocre aja yee huahauw (emang iya kok). dan ternyata pas diumumin.. gila loh gila loh.. padahal gue udah yakin banget kalah! dan ternyata
KITA emang beneran kalah hehehe :D udah kalah girang lagi, rusuh bgt.. guru gue mukanya udah gaenak aja tuch. berasa sial aja die, uda keluar duit banyak, mobilnya dia pake mogok, gataunye ni murid-murid brengsek malah gak menang huahaaa. maaf ya buu, gagal dech gue mendapat nilai bagus tapi ya yg penting kan udah memuji Tuhan yakaaan aseek dah.. hahaha..

this is me

2008-10-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

hari ini gue curhat sama temen gue dan perkataannya sangat membuka mata gue untuk ngeliat mana yang salah dan yang bener.
gue, gue yang salah. gue egois dan nggak mau ngertiin orang lain. gue suka menyia-nyiakan salah satu hal yang paling berharga dalam hidup gue, dan saat waktunya tiba, hal itu akan bakal bener-bener menghilang dari hidup gue, ninggalin gue selamanya dan saat itu gue cuma bisa nangis nyesel sama apa yang gue perbuat.

kadang-kadang apa yang gue omongin nggak sesuai ama hati gue. kadang gue nggak bisa jujur ngungkapin perasaan karena gengsi. mamam deh tu gengsi. kalo udah gengsi dan emosi, gue jadi lupa diri. 1 kebun binatang udah gue absen, kata-kata eksplisit udah keluar semua dan gue sama sekali gak merduliin perasaan si lawan bicara gue, yang merupakan orang yang sangat gue sayangi. dan hal itu bisa ngehancurin semuanya, apa yang udah kita bangun selama ini dalam fondasi yang rigid dan gampang ancur.

so starting from now, i will try to control my self, learning to wont do anything that i would regret on the future. i will thinking before i'm talking, i will keep anything that God has given to me before i loose it all. sometimes, the precioust thing is just in front of us but we didn't used our heart to realize it cause we used our eyes first. i will not make any promises but i just want to give a proof that i can do it and not just talked about it. and fellas, i wont breakup with my cupcake because i used to love him since ever and just let the love do us part :p since there's still a lot like love between us, we will stay this way.

dealing with broken heart

2008-10-22T09:14:00.000-07:00

i just texted my boyfriend and we had a big fight

i love him, but.. udah terlalu banyak bukti yang menunjukan bahwa kita gak cocok
ditambah lagi sama soal long distance, his fuckin college bussiness which i can't deal with, kita yang suka curigaan dan lain-lain yang cuma nunjukin kalo kita emang not made for each other.
kita juga udah jarang smsan dan sekalinya sms juga berantem. gue bingung siapa yang salah siapa yang bener karena kita emang sama-sama kepala batu. jujur gue sayang parah sama dia, gue udah terbiasa sama keadaan kita yang dulu-dulu dan gue gak siap ama perubahan yang sekarang ini. maybe it sounds kinda selfish, but i just can't resist this..

gue juga suka gelisah sendiri mikirin bagaimana kelakuan dia disana. hey, times can (do) change someone right? gue kangeen banget sama dia tapi dia kayaknya ga ada problem sama itu. dia bisa ngejalanin hidupnya baek-baek aja tanpa gue.

i'm just tired with this boyfriend-girlfriend probs and i think i should stop all this fuckin drama which is tiring. biarlah dia fokus sama kuliahnya dan gue (klise) fokus ama sekolah. i had a one big dream and i should start to realize it from now, it takes much attention so there's no time to be cheesy like this.

hopefuly i get over this as soon as i can.

my pumpkin cherry love

2008-10-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

many peoples said that i should breakup with you but i won't because i love you and i'm into any my promises for you, i just want to show you that we can work out for it, we still holdin on each other even our hands are not arranged together side by side, even our eyes are blind then we can't see how lovely we are, even our arms are breaks into any parts so that we can't hug each other but we can still feel the warmth, even we take our breaths in a different air but we still can smell of our sweet fragrant, even our feets are standing on a different soil but we feels just like stand side by side, even our ears are heard different sounds everyday but we can still heard our voice each other which is sounded like 'i love you' ,even we are apart you're in mars i'm in venus but we can still feel our heart beating faster together in a same rhytmic beacuse we know that is something between us that always live in our heart and always do mergering us even when we were separate a thousand million kilos between, and that's what we called LOVE.

keluh kesah

2008-10-21T10:32:00.001-07:00

sebel gue hari ini. tuh guru-guru di sekolah gue emang gele ye.
pertama kali yang betingkah tuh si manang. anying sebel banget gue, padahal gak ngapa-ngapain tapi gue ama dita kenaa terus. mana colek-colek lagi. hi jijik. woo manang gendong tuyul!
terus si yepheew (yeni pardede). masa kan ya tangan gue lagi kotor tuh, terus gue bersihin pake sanitizer. eeh gue malah dibentak-bentak. jiih aneh lu pe. dua kali gue kena ama dia hari ini. huahahau
duduk belakang tuh kadang2 bawa sial ye. bawaannya kenaa melulu. hahaha. mana kelas puanas banget dah kayak neraka bocor. pengen dah punya ac portabel yang kecil bisa dibawa kemana tapi dinginnya ruaar biasa (kekek lebay). bikinin doong..

haha emang deh sekolah gue yang cakeep ituu. ganteng bener dah tujuh satu. apalagi kepsek uda ganti jadi si situmorang, tambah gaoelz aja ni sekolah. sekarang ujian digabung ama belajar (yang bikin semua orang cuapek) terus sekarang kalo mau gamasuk juga susa bener.. ahh, taela, gue pangen cepet lulus wooy

what i want to say

2008-10-21T10:12:00.000-07:00

first i want to say something for her.
if you want to be listen, than listen back and shutup yor foking mouth or seesh,could ya dissapear from my eyes? you such an eye-polution, WRAWRGH!
sorry for saying this rude things!

and then,something for him
don't talked to me like you're the king of the whole world, i need my times to talk about my self too, it's not all about you, but us. you're not the one and only who had much problems but me too baby, we can listen to each other and cares fo each other. sometimes i felt like i'm outta yor world but i just want us to be more closer than now. i knew you were busy all the times, i can wait for it...

a little bit more for my chairmate
we really really need more times to sleep like hell hahaha

live perform, school zine

2008-10-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

heyo there..
this is a great monday, tumben sekolah asik dikit.. hahaha,hari ini maliq dateng ke sekolah and then i saw their live performance.. i never really pay attention much for them before this. terus akhirnya gue sibuk ngalay dan sibuk kepanasan.. oiya ngayas banget tuh gue gak bisa ikut wawancara padahal kan gue anggota mading huh huh (gue dan shia gak berenti2 maki-maki si 'kuntilanak eksis' hahaha) ckck nambah dosa aje. oh iye, gue baru tau lale is georgeous yew haha norak :D

anyway, i just can't wait to make our school zine (sebenarnya sih udah terbit dari dolo-dolo tapi pengen gue ubah dikiit) and i got a job to make the cover but i thought this one not good enuf, here it is..

yeah, teko is a weird name! and i thought this looked a lil messy,doesn't it?

yah tapi bomat dah aah, wong gak ada yang baca juga yaa. malah gue pernah liat kebuang-buang gituu, kasian banget yak. tapi yaah isinya emang ngebosenin sih, jelas ga ada yang mau baca. mestinya dibikin semenarik mungkin dong pak,bu.. ya kalo mau maju.

kasian ih ih

2008-10-14T10:43:00.000-07:00

kasiaan bangeet dah gua.
kemaren kan gue udah seneng2 aja tuh, pc udah balik ke ruma
gue kira,100% sembuh sempurna
dengan semangat 45 gue beli the sims dua
norak banget gue,orang udah maenin itu dari jaman baheula
tapi dari dulu gue gak bisa maen gara2 kurang memori pecah-pecah
yauda gue beli borongan,udah hepi aja
eh tau taunya
tetep aja
lambreta lamborgini bin pecah-pecah
gara-gara kekecilan memori vga
argh
spechless gua

monyeeeeeeet!
nyet se-enyet enyetnya
mana bluetooth gakbisa diinstal
aaah tapi ya mau gimana
gakbisa buat apa-apa juga
yah paling terima aja..

guilty

2008-10-13T08:11:00.001-07:00

well, i love this boy and we've been together for almost 13 months
he is someone and i thought he was my world
but in his world maybe i'm just someone
duh

olalalalalalall

2008-10-13T07:57:00.000-07:00

hey there fellas i'm coming back to strikes again so be prepare to see some lightning in my eyes oh oh oh (haha maksudnya mau nyanyi). with a new spirit come on come on let's run to the outside and mack all the Looser with their big big L not includes the capital font oh oh oh (okay,stop).
i'm so excited because..jeng jeng.. komputer gue udah diperbaikiin
seneeeng dehh
umaah (menjijikan)
gatau gue mau ngomong apa.. yang pasti gue seneeeng!
tapi kok rasanya sama aja ya kecepatannya? hahh
and i can't wait to play all games with 90% enjoyness! wuhuu yeepee
tapi gue males sekolah ni.. can anyone burn my spirit again?

regret, and happy howday!

2008-09-23T08:43:00.000-07:00

hari ini gue sangat sangat menyesal masuk sekolah.
nyesel abis kenapa gue gak cabut ya! bego abibeees
pan besok uda libur tuh.. naah,sebenarnya hari ini gue udah planning tuh mau cabut. tapi guru agama gue kemaren bilang,hari ini tuh pulang jam 10.
gaktaunya, pulang kaya biasa.
ngehe banget tu sekolahan.. apa maksudnya coba pulang lama2, secara belajar udah ga efektif dan gajelas gitu.. bayangin aja kelas gue yg mestinya 39, yang masuk cuma 19. itupun pada banyak yg cabut pas pelajaran. sepii bangeet cuuy dah kayak tempat bimbel. emang dah anak ips, hahaha... gurunya juga udah pada maklum dan kaga ada yang ngabsen! mereka cuma senyum2 doang pas tau pada cabut. anyiiiiiiing ngapain siih gue sok kerajinan masuk sekola -__- mana ini hari puanas banget gela-gelaan, untung bisa ngadem di mbl indra..
tapi yaudalah, pas pulang akhirnya gue jalan ke mm ama shia indra. pulang juga uda siang yoda kita nyari yang deket. mana si shia pake batal lagi,hahha sori ya shi.. tapi emang mm bangsat kita gadapet parkir, kelamaan nyari parkir doang! fuck yoh mm yo rejected us! nyari parkir ama jalan2nya lamaan nyari parkir kali (haha lebay)
and then kita makan ama ke multi, i bought a very cutie dollcena mayan buat nambah koleksi haha. tu 2 anak bawel banget tau gua beli gituan, katanya 'buat apaan seeeh' tapi yodah woles aja kali ya namanya hobiii.
dan pas pulaang, gue melihat 2 orang yang paling gue gak pengen liat di dunia ini.. tapi yodalah. terus akhirnya gue balik deh ke rumah. maless banget rasanya.. i'm turning into living dead yo know! kadang2 gue ngerasa lebih baik masuk sekola daripada ngedekem doang di rumah (ah padahal tadi gue gembar-gembor pengen cabs ya gimana seeh) tapi di sekola at least gue bisa bersenda gurau ama temen2. daripada di rumah.. feels like, unloveable you know.. and i hate that.

oh iya cowo gue sakit perut lho :( katanya si gara2 keracunan makanan? lagian dia pemakan segala sih.. hope you'll better soon yah howneey, i wish i could be there for ya but everything makes it harder to realize it

anyway, happy holiday fellas! sorry for all my mistakes!

living in 0

2008-09-22T08:54:00.000-07:00

do you know what '0' (nol) means? yap, kosong, ga ada nilainya
and now i'm living my life in 0

pfuh akhir2 ini hidup gue gak juntrung abibes.. sekolah ya, cuma tidur doang dan sok2 dengerin guru, ngegosip ama temen en yahh bikin dosa lagi..
tapi itu masih mending deh daripada rumah
pulang sekolah ya gaboleh kemana-mana. tapi tetep aja pas pulang rumah kosong cuma ada si embak. yah,ampe sore gue cuma tidur-maen komputer.. itu itu doang tiap hari.
kakak gue pulang kuliah malem banget, jam 9an. gaktau dah gue kuliah macam apa yang dia bikin itu. ampe rumah? gue dicuekin abis. bener2 ga ngomong kalo ga ada perlu. beda bgt sama dulu. sekarang bawaannya selek melulu. gue udah kaya dianggep ga ada. dia cuma sibuk telpon2an ama pacar tolol nya tercinta. segila apapun mau gue bikin,dia kaga peduli. paling banter marah. buntutnya gue dimaki trus maen tangan deh.
kayaknya sohib gue sekarang cuma komputer. gue juga gak kangen nyokap. kalo ama dia kerjaanya pasti selek mulu. dan gue selalu dibanding-bandingin. muak tau gak. gue cuma kangen bokap. kayaknya cuma dia yang perduli ama anak. tapi dia juga sibuk. pulang malem. sekarang dinas di luar kota.
jadi gue selalu sendiri dari siang pulang skola ampe pagi mau berangkat skola.

yaah.. hidup gue sih gak melankolis amat. tapi juga gak ada kejadian apapun yang menarik. kosong. gak minus,gak plus. ga ada yang perlu diprotes dari hidup gue sekarang ini. hahaha.. tapi ya siapa perduli, toh lo juga gak baca postingan ini kan? ha.
i laughed the loudest for my self.

gak modal

2008-09-22T04:21:00.000-07:00

hmm.. akhir-akhir ini gue suka sekali menggambar pake pensil warna.. rada reseh kalo pake komputer gara2 uda kebanyakan virus, bayangin dah wallpaper gue aja udah keganti ama warning window spyware gitu dan tiap gue buka kompi pastii aja ada virus detected. ah udah capek, dasar gila ni pc (tuhkan marah lagi) tapi gapapa gue tetep sayang.

ohya,soal pensil warna lagi.. sebenarnya gue menggambar dengan alat ini karena gue secara gak sengaja pada suatu hari (duh kacau bahasa) menemukan benda ini dalam laci. pensil2 ini adalah pensil gratisan yang (sebenarnya) dipinjamkan saat lomba, tapi berakhir dengan nyangkut ampe rumah dalam tas gue. emang ga modaal dah ah.. iseng2 deh gue pake. ternyata asik sekali, padahal dulu gue anti make pensil warna gara2 capek ngewarnain pake beginian.

duile ga modal amat ye gue.. tapi dari kecil emang begitu. gue jarang memakai lahan kertas baru, tapi gue gambar di buku telepon, dinding, buku pelajaran.belakang buku tulis.. nah yang terakhir ni paling ganggu. lagi nyatet, belum ampe bagian tengah2, eh udah kebanyakan corat-coretnya. hahaha.. ohya di kertas soal ulangan juga gue suka. hahaha tuh,hemat kertas kan gue. irit abess.

jadi post ini intinya apa? intinya..ya gue gak modal.. itu.

anger management!

2008-09-22T04:07:00.000-07:00

yoh world.. hozidgoen? hahah sepiik dah. hmm mine is bad,this lately i've been changed into a monster who always throwed tantrum everywhere everytime dan my arga yang seperti ultraman berhasil meredakan kemarahan saya dengan jurus icy-icy-love nya (jiih apaseh!) haha but seriously, i need to learn some anger management kalo gakmau berakhir koit gara-gara darah tinggi. gilaa,gue jadi seriing banget marah2 sendiri dan itu sangaat merugikan. tapi kayaknya akhir-akhir ini semuaa orang jadi nyebelin apa gue nya yang lagi sensi? haha (pasti jawaban terkhir ye). tapi emang gue jadi sering banget kesel ama orang... kayaknya semua orang gue keselin (ngeselin amat ya gue!) dan ini bikin gue kesel abibes karena bawaannya hati jadi gaktenang gitchuu. bhabhabhha

bytheway gue menyampaikan duka sedalam-dalamnya untuk senior gue aryo prabowo yang telah berpulang ke ribaan Allah swt dikarenakan kecelakaan. meski gue gak kenal, bahkan gak pernah tau siapa dia, tapi gue turut berduka cita, semoga arwahnya diterima di sisiNya amiiin...

pain of the week

2008-09-17T01:27:00.001-07:00

yomen.. highschool life became not so high for me since i totally looked like a dumb, goes to school with my scummmy look hahaha.. gara2 peraturan baru sialan, yulfira nangkring di pagar sekolah tiap pagi, pagi-pagi banget, jadi percuma juga mau dateng pagi tetep aje kena. ada 2 kesialan di minggu ini:

> rok ketangkep, tapi gue nggak pergi ke ruang wakil seperti perintah yang diberikan haha.. sebenarnya sih ni rok ga pendek2 banget, biasa aje malah. dari dulu pake ini juga gak kena masalah. gara2 bulan ramadhan kali ya? kenapa gak disuruh pake cadar aja sekalian.. karena ga sempet beli baru, akhirnya semua rok gue dedel sendiri dengan jahitannya yang keluar2.. haha ha

>untuk menambah predikat ketidakmodalan gue, tas ransel gue ikut rusak dan bener2 ga layak liat+pegang deh pokonya.. (resleting rusak gabsa ditutup sehingga kebuka melambai lambai gitu,warna putih dekil kumel kena ciprat lumpur item-item,robek dengan gambar2+cat yang udah luntur gara2 digambar pake faster terus dicuci ama mbak gue sehingga gambarnya jadi super gajelas) tampang udah kayak abis mulung dah.. akhirnya gue pake tas adek gue yang gambarnya my melody yang nemu di gudang. gile ye anak smu pake begituan,mau dikira sok imut sok rapuh sok kecil ape? ya tapi ya udalah, tasnya enak gede banyak space, daripada pake tas pundak yang bikin gue sangat menderita,sementara pake ini aja dolo eheeeh

woah cepetlah libur lebaran dan biarkan sekolah jahanam ini se le saiiiii

del toro addiction

2008-09-15T00:02:00.000-07:00

yesterday i just saw hellboy 2 and i was so amazed with all those monsters, yeah who behind it all? he is!
guillermo del toro is one of my most fav director. olala i love all the pieces of this mexicans guy. but i just know three ;p and me likeey. name it, pan's labyrinth,hellboy and the orphanage.. ye eh i knew the last one is not had much effect at all, but a good story, good thrill, and a strong character make such a good movie to watch and i enjoyed every second i was thrilled up,brr
yeah i'll waiting for another his piece. and still waiting for the masterpiece! he's done such a gee job

there's a lot of movie i saw reccently this week and have you watch the mist? eeoh it has a freak end, make you wanna scream "why did you do that? can't you just wait dude?" and i has a nice story,it was so stephen's (remember maine!) and death race was the coolest of all,sadistic! race,murder,win!

15 sept

2008-09-14T23:22:00.000-07:00

i remember, sept 15th last year was an awkward, i remember that night, 14th at 11pm i cried so hard
i was so pathetic and i want to do a lot of stupid stuff
i hate my mom yo know, and she made a climax that night
something like a big bubble on my stomach was going bigger,bigger and bigger everyday,but that night it was popped off
popped by something that was so similiar for me,anger,and i used to feel it everyday
i can't think clearly and i feel that if i end my life now, there will be no pain longer, just for a second then you'll go and be free do whatever you want to
"the choice was mine and this may be good"
"why do you stay? go out, search some poise, you know you can't hold on for this!"
"no one loves you or needs you, so when you pass away,people will be okay, there's no such a big hit for their life,trust me they don't mind"
but i want it to be a big hit, maybe people will cry for me?
but my friend sent me short message, he said
hi whatsup?
i told him everything, i cry and laugh at the same time
funny,he said i should go to the church to pray. huh! ya think it'll solving?
no he not helped. but he said he was so confussed and he warned me thousandly to stop this! he called me and i rejected it. he want to go to my house but do yo know mine?
fake fake fake attention
then he called a boy,who is my crush and we're so close. but i don't want him to know,whatdoya think yo are huh?
but my crush is called me and he whispered me with all his charm
funny, i said i love him that morning, it was just 03.00 am maybe
then we did. officialy he's my bf. ya ah i got my loved one when i want to kill mine
it was such a drama. i don't thik he saves me, but enough to be a good reason why i should stay here
that night just like a soap opera, he stopped me to do such an evil's stuff
you've got me.. happy 1st anniversary dear

-

2008-09-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

I never thought I'd die alone

I laughed the loudest who'd have known

I traced the cord back to the wall

No wonder it was never plugged in at all

I took my time, I hurried up

The choice was mine, I didn't think enough

I'm too depressed, to go on

You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came

16 just held such better days

Days when I still felt alive

We couldn't wait to get outside

The world was wide, too late to try

The tour was over we'd survived

I couldn't wait till I got home

To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone

Another six months I'll be unknown

Give all my things to all my friends

You'll never step foot in my room again

You'll close it off, board it up

Remember the time that I spilled the cup

Of apple juice in the hall

Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came

16 just held such better days

Days when I still felt alive

We couldn't wait to get outside

The world was wide, too late to try

The tour was over but we'd survived

I couldn't wait till I got home

To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came

Tomorrow holds such better days

Days when I could still feel alive

When I can't wait to get outside

The world is wide, the time goes by

The tour is over I survived

And I can't wait till I get home

To pass the time in my room alone

hello again

2008-09-09T20:30:00.000-07:00

hoedeey.. Ahaha udah lama banget ga buka ini hehe.. Semua gara2 spedi siaul tuh, dari tgl 1 gamau nyala ampe sekarang.. Untung aja sekolah bisa wifi an hehe (norce). Ahh,there's a lot of thoughts I wanna write here but seems I already forgotten, blank brain... Do oh, hasil remed udah keluar.. Libur lebaran entar lagi, and happy fasting everyone jangan pada bolong ye. Oh iya,gua sempet mikir kalo orang puasa tuh hari2nya cuma diisi tadarusan,sholat,ngaji,zidkir dll ampe buka,emang bener ya? Wahaha... btw di kelas bosen gela nih,ga ngapa2 in doh.. Lapeer..

lebay mind, lebay thoughts

2008-08-30T08:13:00.001-07:00

pas gue ngelamun siang2.. entah ngapa gue jadi keinget pas karantina lomba design nokia dulu. pas itu gue ngebikin gambar monster2 dengan background pelangi (sayang ga sempat di scan) dan pas karantina gue harus mempresentasikan gambar gua tersebut.
ya langsung aja gue panik! kan gue gambarnya ngasal2 (bikin cuma 2 jam di hari terakhir nyuri2 waktu dari pel sosiologi) dan MANA GUE PIKIRIN maknanya apaan. mana gue lupa gambar gue kayak gimana persisnya lagi! (dongok)
yaoda gue sepik-sepik abis aja. gue ngomong kea gini 'saya terinspirasi dari kartun,dimana monster-monster tsb tidak menyeramkan namun lucu dan menghibur (??) sehingga para pemakai hp dapat merasakan keceriaan dari monster2 lucu (??) tsb yang dapat membuat hati bahagia dan bersemangat' dan laeen laeen laeen yang sumpah nyepik abis dan basi banget banget. pokoknya kalimat gue yang udah manis2 dan lebay2 aja,tapi muter muter dan diulang ulang,sampe muka juri udah bete dan ga interest. ha ha ha. telak abis dah gue di bagian presentasi.
sebenarnyaa. sebelum lomba, gue nanya ke cowo gue, kira2 penjelasan kayak gimana yang bagus ye? jeng jeng dia pun ngasih usul gelo nan lebay,tapi mungkin sebenarnya ampuh..
pas presentasi,pengen gue tanya ama juri, MAU MAKNA YANG BIASA2 AJA APAYANG LEBAY? huahaa. yang biasa yg kayak di atas tadi. yang lebay kea gini:
'sebernya,makna dari saya menggambar monster ini adalah, saya ingin menggambarkan masyarakat perkotaan sekarang yang SUDAH SEPERTI MONSTER! liat aje orang indonesa udah pada gelo semua, ada sumanto pemakan mayat, ryan homo hobi ngebantai (tapi ini belom ada pas itu,hehe) dll seperti yang anda liat di buser! atau yang melakukan konfrontasi pembunuhan secara diam2! kayak pedagang ikan asin yang ngasih pemutih peroksida ke ikannya,dokter gila malpraktek,dukun santet tukang kibul,kkdrt,orang dpr gila uud pemakan duit rakyat,dll! dibalik topeng muka alim/ganteng/sok suci sebenarnya tersimpan sisi MONSTER YANG SANGAT BERINGAS. saya ingin menyadarkan wahai penduduk kota kalo kita hidup dalam dunia berbahaya dengan monster senantiasa mengintai! dibalik warna-warninya perkotaan yang menyilaukan (background pelangi) tapi kita semua dikelilingi MONSTER SOK INOSEN atau mungkin kita SALAH 1 MONSTERNYA. Jadi sadarlah SAUDARA-SAUDARA! Apa yang anda perbuat akan anda tuai di akherat dan diadili oleh Allah Tuhan YME! SADARLAH sebelum kita berubah menjadi monster2 tsb dan mari kita MAJUKAN INDONESIA! JAYYAA,MERDEKAA!! BERJUANG BAGI TUMPAH DARAH INDONE..' )okei,udah terlalu norak lebay,cukup.)
ya begitulah. mungkin kalo itu yang gue presentasiin,mulut juri dah nganga segede bakso tenis dengan sorot mata apakah-anda-waras/are-you-come-from-outer-space?
eaa mo presntasi design apa pidato kemerdekaan lu?
haha,sori kalo bos and zonk,untung aja gak jadi gue pake buat presentasi ye,haha.... HIDUP LEBAAY MAMEEN,PEACE LOVE AND GA GAOOL

KOMPLEN SPEEDY

2008-08-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

Okee mas mas mbak mbak telkom, gua pengen banget komplen soal speedy!
gue pengen banget tereak depan muke orang2 ini,'GEELOO BANGET NI INTERNET!'
dari pertama gue langganan, abis dipasang ternyata 1 bulan gak bisa dijalanin. oke setelah gue teror abis tuh orang telkom akhirnya diapain gitu terus bisa jalan. hehe sekalinya jalan, lemotzzz gela! ngebuka window nya lama banget, udah gitu susah bener kalo mau nge upload (gue jadi gabisa ngaplod ke DA lagi huhu) jangankan DA, mau buka google aja mabrur.. buka images google aja lama.
udah gitu kira2 sebulan lagi berjalan, eh.. kumat. JADI SUSAH BANGET NGE KONEKNYA. harus berapa kali mati-nyalain mati-nyalain modem baru dah bisa jalan. apalagi dengan adanya promo free dari 20.00-08.00, wahaha.. ga bisa kebuka! GILA YAA. akhirnya gue buka aja dari siang ampe malem lewat jam 20.00, baru dah bisa.. hosh..
mau buka situs macem multiply ato yang aneh2,wahaha bikin emosi banget. ga bisa dibuka cing! hahah.. akhirnya kalo gue mau nyari tugas ya kadang2 ke warnet. untung aja blogspot masih bisa dibuka+upload.
kadang sanking depresinya(di rumah gada kerjaan cuma ngenet) akhirnya ya gue cuma maen di google doang. paling nyari gambar.. dari yang ilmiah ampe yang gapenting gila macam gue nyari gambar aura kasih (cos gue gatau mukanya kea apa) ato liat gambar dewi persik. dari situ kadang kebuka thread2 gosip yang lumayan menghibur.
tapi pas gue tanya temen gue yang pake speedy, dia bilang biasa2 aje tuch. woaa sentimen nih telkom. gue pengen ganti yang laen tapi masih bingung =__=
yah.. tolong dong mba mas pelayanannya lebih ditingkatkan lagi. kok cuma saya doang yang eror2 gini, huhu..

silent hill orphan,hiy!

2008-08-28T05:19:00.000-07:00

daripada bergalau-galau ria.. mending ngebahas yang laen aja. so let's talk about.. game! huaha ada game hp yang sering gue maenin belakangan ini,yaitu sillent hill orphan. lo semua pasti uda tau kan game ps ama filmnya. terus dibikin ke versi hp dah.. tapi ni game serem,bikin gua parno anyiing... (apa gue doang yg takut?)
jadi plot ceritanya berkisah tentang Ben (yang di ps namanya ben juga gak sih?). si Ben ini dulunya anak panti. tapi ternyata dia punya masa lalu yang kelam,azeek. teman2nya terbunuh di kasur mereka pada saat sedang tidur and luckily si ben ini lagi di nongkrong di wc. yang lolos pada saat itu cuma 3 orang yaitu ben,karen,ama gatau. terus setelah sekian lama,si ben balik lagi ke orphanage nya karena dia ngerasa ada yang janggal dan harus diselidiki. dia sendiri juga gak tau hal itu apa (dongo ye) pokonya firastnya membawanya kesini. teus mulai deh petualangan ben di orphanage nya dulu. sumpah lorong2 dan ruangan2nya tuh gelap dan serem abiss.. gambar pembukaan pas maen game nya aja berupa boneka setan. udah mana sound-nya ngagetin.. gila. udah mana maennya tuh susah!
jadi disini semua tuh ga ada petunjuknya selanjutnya lo harus ngapain, ga kaya csi miami ato special crime kan lo dikasih petunjuk tentang apa yang harus lo lakukan selanjutnya. ini lo tebak2 aja sendiri,lo cobain semua items yang lo dapet ama benda2 di ruangan2 aneh itu. i mean,banyak hal yang mungkin gak kepikiran di otak lo,tapi itu harus dilakuin. apa gue nya yang kelewat bego? haha. oh ya ada juga bagian riddle yang susah dimana kita harus nyusun tulisan berbahasa latin menjadi kalimat. tapi banyak sih walkthrough nya di google jadi gausa repot deh..
buat game hp ini ya udah termasuk game yang sangat amusing ya,meski kadang bikin gue stres. terus gue jadi takut ama ruangan gelap. oh ya ada juga section di game ini dimana kita menemukan portal penghubung dunia 'beneran' sama dunia 'alternatif' yang merupakan dunianya setan. ada2 aja.. oh ya katanya sih pas lo selese main game ini (gw belon tamat) ada tulisan 'to be continued'. grrrh emang sinetron apa!!
pokoknya serem,gue suka ama plot ceritanya. gue mah emang demen ama cerita yang berhubungan dengan 'hantu-hantu di panti asuhan' atau '100 tahun yang lalu anak2 terbunuh di panti asuhan ini dan gentayangan' yah kayak model-model the orphanage gitu.. wahau
yah anyway ini game bukannya bikin ceria malah bikin takut...

gilau ye sial aja mulu

2008-08-28T04:57:00.000-07:00

eh sialan.. hari ini mah kacau banget. cowo gue yang jelek itu ga dateng2 juga. padahal hari ini kesempatan terakhir. sabtu nyokap gue dateng ampe minggu depan,it means gue gabisa kemana-mana selain ama nyokap. gue juga ga berani smsan ama telpon kalo ada nyokap. berarti gua gabisa ketemu ama konek2an lagi ama dia bahkan saat ada his goddamn birthday. huhh sebeel. arga jeleeeeeek tuyuuuuul!!!!

you such an idiot to never think how i miss ya' so much. you such an idiot to never send me a message even just once at day. you such an idiot to never come here and go back to where your place belong. you such an idiot to never realize that you have a girlfriend who loves you more than anything. you such an idiot to never know that you already ruin my heart,boy

udah selesai lhoo brur!

2008-08-28T04:29:00.000-07:00

yeeha.. akhirnye. ulangan blok 1 kelar juga. bisa santai2 doong (gak ngaruh juga sih,pas ulangan juga santai2 aje). hahah pokoknya seneng deh. selesai UB hari kamis,jumat ampe rabu libur. tapi yang bikin zonk-nya,gue di rumah sendirian cuma ama si embak doang. tau gak lo kenapa gue sendirian? panjang ceritanya. males.
pas UB gue tumben2an sedikit (ingat,sedikit) belajar lhoo heheh.. biasanya mah enggak sama sekali. ato pagi2. gila ye? tapi karena sekarang masuknya pagi (dulu siang) akhirnya terpaksa belajar. tapi emang daar otak gue mabrur jadi ya percuma aja ngapalin cape2,pas ulangan lupa semua. yaudaaah,just like many students do so i make a kebetan. tapi emang ya dasar,tuhan itu adil yeh maka kebetan gue ga keluar. yaudah gue ngarang2 aja (untung gue tau inti2nya). eh tapi ternyata mengarang bebas tidak membuat hati afdol,jadi ya kadang2 gua curi nge-bet aja. eh pas mau nge-bet yang ngawas udah kaya herder. yaudah gajadi. ngarang lagi. begonya temen gue pada polos2 aja nanya ke gue,padahal jawaban yang gue kasih kan mabrur,jadi ya... jangan salahkan bunda mengandung ye kalo nilai lo jelek gara2 gue. oh and thanks to dimas ama cowok depannya bocil,atas oper2an kebetannya huahau
besok tuh hari jumat laki gue ulangtaun. tapi emang dasar laki jelek terjahat sedunia ga ngabar2in gue sama sekali dari 3 hari yang lalu. mana dia juga ga pulang2 dari bandung. jelek lo! ga usah gue beliin kado ah..

my sun,my universe,my love

2008-08-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

first we met, i never ever think he'll be mine. just like a friend,with no butterflies,just had a cute chit chat and never goes any deep emotion between us. but day by day,we're two just click like we know that we are so made for each other,every conversation just flow like water in a loch should be. he's so fresh like a summer in a mini valley and so warm just like sun that brighten my day always. we (or he?) waiting in a long long time even we dont know what are we waiting for. where this relationship should go? i can't wait,tough. when the L words just come from my lip,he was so happy,he said he just waiting for a right time to said that,but still can't found it. after it,we're so unseparable and just like a two lovebirds, we through day by day together and never be apart. i just can't think what kind of life would that be if he was gone from mine. he's my sun that shine in every ways of my life and always there when the darkness comes arrive. But my sun no longer be with me. after almost a year,he was gone into a college,to study. now my sun just so far away from me. i feel like outta world. life is so clueless without him,because he's my universe,my everything. But luckily i can be more optimist with this. I knew my sun wont go from my life and always there to be mine forever just like who i am for him

yea ya

2008-08-11T08:24:00.000-07:00

But you don't even know me
Guess you don't need me
Why you're not seein' what you're missin'
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say
I'm unusual
Not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around

blah blah blah blah ya ya ya suara hati gua bangey tuh

mading,siluman

2008-08-11T08:17:00.000-07:00

okay i'm a lila bit upset nooow :(( tadi siang ikut lomba mading tapi ga menang,yauda lai itsokey,tapi si juri nya pake bilang2 kalo tadi sebenarnya bisa jadi juara 3 tuh,tinggal dikiit lagii. sialan,gua dari pertama emang kagak niat gitu ikutnya,abis gue pikir bakal mubazir banget,udah buang duit kagak menang lagi. tapi tau gini gua bakal usaha lebih maksimal lagi deh,huhu.. emang regret always come belakangan,bikin gua mikir,"ih kenapa tadi gua nggak begini ya","kenapa gua gak pasang ini ya", de el el. tapi setidaknya yang kayak begini ini jadi pelajaran lah,kalo mau ngelakuin sesuatu jangan setengah2. hahahah..
dari obrolan ngalor ngidul soal mading,akhirnya crew gue(gaya eh) tercetus ide pingin bikin kostum mading.. ga etis sih ya kalo dibilang kostum,secara seragam aja gitu kek ya,kalo kostum pan kaya 1 set gitu,hahaha. lucu deh,kita pengen bikin semi hoodie gitu,tapi ga pake lengan. ntar di hoodie nya ada kuping kelinci gitu..jahaha kayak baju playboy mansion girls ya. tapii,corak hoodienya motif leopard. jadi apa sebenarnya wujud hodi ini? kelinci macan tutul? apa hubungnnya mading am kostum siluman kayak gini? hahaha tapi seru juga kali ye buat seru2an..

i do love blythe so much :)

2008-08-09T01:18:00.000-07:00

i'm in love with blythe! blythe is a cute cute doll with a pair of big eyes yang bisa lo ganti2 warnanya. ada 2 ukuran,the petite one and the big one called neo blythe. yg gede lucu bgt,bisa di custom sendiri ama kita,bisa lo ganti rambutnya apa make up nya gitu.. ampe ada make up artist profesional nya segala coba.. ini ada beberapa blythe yang gua suka banget custom nya,anjrit sukses bener bikin gua ngiler2..

gue ngebeli neo blythe yang namanya can-can,pengen juga coba2 custom kayak gini,hahahah.. tapi barangnya belom nyampe2 ih :(

zonky

2008-08-09T00:45:00.000-07:00

this is the zonkiest saturday in my life.. i'm boring and i made this blog! hi all,do you know who i am? that's secret i'll never tell you,xoxo (eeeuuw gossip girl mode on haha :D ) jijik ya.. maklum deh